Wednesday, January 30, 2013

But, I'm a Tyler Girl!


Only God could know the work that was sure to crop up in my life by moving me out of a place that was full and familiar to a place that is new and scary. For almost 30 years, I called Tyler, Texas my home. I adored everything about it and so many of the people in it. I loved my church, my friends, my family, my doctors. All of it. As I drove through town, so many places held memories for me. I had history there, people knew me, and it was a rare occasion for me to go anywhere and not see a familiar face smiling back at me. I knew the struggles people had faced, the accomplishments they'd made, and the legacies they'd left, both good and bad. It was my home. My scene. My life. 

It wasn't until God moved me out of that familiarity that I realized how much He desires my dependence on Him. There have been more than a few moments since The Big Move that I've cratered under the feelings of being unknown. 

On the one hand, fighting a very public breast cancer battle in Tyler was difficult, but on the other, I knew that place had my back. Sure, I've always trusted the Lord, but it is so much easier when you have a network of people who can walk alongside you. But, what about when you don't. What then?

This new season and new chapter has been so rewarding and refreshing. God has convicted my heart on so many levels. He's forced me to remember that my identity is in Christ and not in any other relationship or involvement. He's allowed me to empathize with those who have no one. He's given me the challenge of being a friend to the friendless. 

But, it grieves my heart that it took me until now to feel what the lonely feel. To use the words of my kidding sister, "I don't need another friend. I've already met my quota", has so often been my motto. Sick, right?!?

So, here I am in a new place, meeting new people, and being a new kinda girl. I'm no longer that Tyler girl who was perfectly content in my contained little life with plenty of friends and plenty of opportunities for fun. No. Now, God is teaching me to be a friend, to truly love, and to show His kindness to all those I encounter. I'll keep you posted on how this all works out. But, for now, this is what I know for sure, wherever we are, we are to love with the kindness and gentleness of the Savior, whether that be in our comfort zone or 428 miles away (but who's counting :) from it.

May the God of all hope prompt your heart along with mine to love richly today. It's the only thing that counts. 

7 comments:

Jennifer Grigsby said...

Hey girl - This was so me when I moved to Tyler. It was such a great time of spiritual growth for me and Jason. I'll be praying for you guys. Hang in there!

one of nettie's girls said...

It's always good to see a new post from you. And, even better to see what God is teaching you in your new place!

Emily said...

Yay for the new post! I was anxious to see how things were going since the move. So glad you are adjusting well!

Julie Adams said...

You see, I grew up in Big Spring, Texas for 18 years near Midland, moved to Lubbock still in West Texas then to Abilene in West Texas THEN to Tyler where we met so I was the reverse of you! East Texas has brought me a new journey and amazing new friends. It doesn't happen overnight and your roots will always be there, but your heart will grow to love all West Texas has to offer! I still miss it!!!

Erin said...

This brings back memories of when Russell and I got married and moved to a new town. We knew not a soul, and we had to depend on The Lord to bring friendships and a new community into our lives. So glad you are finding His new place for you. :)

Jeanne said...

I needed this today. You didn't know that but God did.....

Chelsea said...

This is a lesson I have learned with each move too. Now I am so much more aware of the new and lonely around me! Praying God uses you in big ways. Hope you are enjoying that big West Texas sky!