Sunday, February 13, 2011

Hard to Watch

Good Afternoon, Dear Ones!
It's been a while, hasn't it? If the honest-to-goodness truth be known, blogging and all things computer-related have been the last things on my mind for the past few days.

Y'all, I've been SICK! I know that's no different than the rest of the world, but it is as it affects this blog. I've done little more than change pajamas for well over a week now. You name the symptom, and I've had it. Finally, I mustered up the courage to go to the doctor on Friday. Well, it coulda been more of Brian doing the mustering!

Anyway, the doctor said, "you're severely dehydrated and you've got something like the flu. Let's get an IV going." So, right there in the middle of the clinic, they loaded me up with the liquid. Immediately, I felt a lot better and chastised myself for not going in sooner. But, cancer patients try their bests not to make any extraneous doctor visits. I'm still not 100% better, but I'm well on my way to rexovery, I hope!

So, that's that. An explanation of my absence.

But, as I was sitting in my pajamas this morning, catching up on dozens of emails, I read over several that told of others who are in their own fights for their lives. As I read through the stories, I thought, "Oh, that's so sad! I understand their fear and terror."

God is always so good to swoop in with His truth. In the next breath He reminded, "Yes. But do you understand my trustworthiness and goodness in ALL things?" In that instant, He used the same words that He's used dozens of times to humble me.

See, the thing is, sometimes God's glory is hard to watch. It makes me think back to Exodus when God shielded His face from Moses. He saw the remnant of His glory, but Moses just couldn't handle the entirety of God's existence.

Sometimes we find ourselves in that situation. We can't see the whole picture. We can't comprehend the outcome, but when we choose to believe that we know better than God, that He isn't trustworthy nor good in this instance, then we are doomed for destruction. Because, even when it doesn't look good, it is.


Anonymous said...

Sorry to hear that you've been sick and hopeful for a quicker recovery now that you've been loaded up with fluids. Thank you for your reminder once again of God's faithfulness and consistency and constancy. Needed that today. Blessings to you and may you be on the road to recovery in full, soon.

Julie-CA said...

Dehydration in itself can make you feel absolutely awful, let alone a bug of any sort. I thanked the Lord for your Doctors wisdom and asked that He bring you into complete health very soon. Hang in there!

Julie-CA said...

Lindsey, I wanted to let you know that per advice of my husband and by what I feel is for the best as well, I am stepping out of the blog relm, so I won't be following this blog anymore.
I want you to know that I sincerly hope the Lord will continue to strengthen your walk with Him and that He will continue to use you even greater than you expected in this new ministry you have entered into. Let your light shine brightly and to Him be the glory in all that you do Lindsey!
*Rom. 15:13*