Saturday, January 8, 2011

Where the Rubber Meets the Road

I sincerely hope that each of you is having as lazy of a Saturday as I am. I have on full athletic wear, no head covering, and no makeup. That's a successful day of rest in my book! Last night, as I was making the 4th trip in 5 days to and from Houston, Brian promised me that we didn't have to go anywhere today. And, I smiled! I liked that idea very much!

So, this day has consisted of Bible study, prayer, lots of couch time, taking down the Christmas tree, a brisk walk in the sun, pizza making (gluten-free, of course), and just good old-fashioned nothingness. Don't you love days like that? I sure do!

I told you in my last post that I'm reading my way through Genesis. What a blessing that's been! I have really been encouraged by reading about the impossiblities in Abraham's life that God turned into possibilities.

Too old for children? ............................... God made him the Father of Nations!

No wife for Isaac? ................................... God provided Rebekah from their homeland!

Called to sacrifice Isaac? ...................... God provided a ram!

You see, it's been encouraging to me to see that God made good on every single thing that He promised to Abraham. And, you know what else has been encouraging? Abraham had moments of disbelief and doubt, and God brought him through those. Remember when Abraham and Sarah became impatient and Abraham conceived Ishmael through Hagar? That wasn't God's perfect plan, yet God still delivered on His promises. Can you relate to that?

Have you had moments when fear and doubt creep into your thoughts? Sure you have! That's human nature. Our human nature is to look at the facts, the circumstances, the situation and make our own judgments. But, I believe that God has called us to live a Spirit-filled life where we trust Him, even when it doesn't make sense, even when it's hard, even when the world says, "You ARE NUTS!" That's what I'm asking Him to help me do.

Yesterday, as I endured a 45-minute brain MRI and a PET scan that took 2 1/2 hours, I had to constantly ask for God to grant me trust. Y'all, please know that this is an IMPOSSIBLE feat without Christ. Without His constant help, my mind is a mess. It is full of Satan's lies and attacks. That's human nature. That's Lindsey.

As I laid in scanning tubes and dark rooms, I just kept praying, "God, I trust you. I need you to hover over me and fill my mind with your truths. Protect me from Satan's attacks on my mind, my body, and my spirit. I can't do this without you."

This whole thing has been an interesting process. I think that I understand salvation much better now than when I became a Christian at the ripe old age of 6. Now, I understand how we need to, not only, ask Jesus into our heart, but transform our minds and hearts so they are Him, and not us. Now, I think I have a better view of redemption. We are hopeless without Him.

So, that's my two cents for today. :)

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A few prayer requests:

1. One of the biggest side effects of radiation (especially whole brain) is extreme fatigue. I'm really starting to feel this. It's not that I'm just constantly sleepy, it's just like I can get up and attem for a while, and then I have to rest for a bit. I'm just not quite my usual, energetic self. Can you please pray that the Lord would restore my energy?

2. Tomorrow afternoon, Brian and I are headed back to Houston. Please pray for safe travel.

3. I am seeing Dr. Alvarez (MD Anderson oncologist) on Monday at 8:20am. Sure would appreciate your specific prayers over that appointment. First, I'll be receiving test results. Please pray that I would constantly remember that these results change nothing, regardless of what they say. If I allow it, I could have a lot of fear about them. Also, please pray God's wisdom and guiding hand over Dr. Alvarez as he makes treatment recommendations. Pray that the Lord would guide my treatment and protect me from harmful treatments.

Thank you so much for continuing along on this journey with us. I can't imagine life without my blog friends! I love y'all more than you know!

(P.S. If you've emailed me lately, please be patient with my reply. Know that I've read every word, but I've been away from my computer most days, and I've got a full inbox that I'm trying to slowly work through. This in no way, represents a lack of appreciation for your email. :)






13 comments:

Anonymous said...

Lindsey and Brian--Praying as you ask--already have & will again. Thank you too, for the reminder of God's faithfulness. One thing that struck me in your post is how we are to be transformed---I so often forget that. Thank you for reminding me that being Christ's is so much more than being saved. Blessings to you both.

Elizabeth said...

I'm glad you got to have a day of rest. I am praying for you!

Erin said...

Prayed.

Christie said...

Lindsey,

I am a "lurker" (Hello! I am coming out of hiding). I have been following your story for quite awhile and I pray for you daily. I think your faith and sweet apirit are amazing! I praise God for the chance to read your testimony and have my own faith strengthened by it. I am praying for complete healing by God's gracious hand!

Alabamamom said...

Continued prayers.

Julie-CA said...

I will be thinking about you both tomorrow and Monday A.M. at 8:20 it will be 6:20 out here and I will be up at that time and will remember to pray for you specifically at that exact time you're preparing to be seen.
Love you Lindsey.

Camille said...

Lindsey,
My prayers will be with you as you travel south tomorrow and meet with the Dr. Monday morning. Continuous prayer and praise for healing.

Corey Ann said...

Lindsey - could you please share a little more of your beliefs and mindset and how, no matter the test results, "this changes nothing". I've heard you mention this in a post before and really want to emulate your way of thinking. I am battling my 2nd mets to my liver and am just terrified of dying and leaving my 4 year old son. I want my faith to fill my soul instead of this fear that creeps in!

Anonymous said...

A beautiful song that keeps playing over and over in my head is "In Christ Alone". Here is a link to the sheet music http://www.gettymusic.com/ica.pdf I love the words and thought you may enjoy it if you haven't heard it already. Praying for you and knowing you will be ok because you stand in the power of Christ!

Paula said...

Lindsey & Brian,
We are continuing to Storm His Throne on yours and Brian's behalf without ceasing! Praying for focused minds with peace that passes all understanding!

from my front porch... said...

Praying for you Lindsey and Brian!
xo, misha

Anonymous said...

Corey Ann....Please know that I just stopped to pray specifically for you. As I type this, I ask Jesus to invade your heart, your mind, and your spirit with encouragement and hope that comes only from Him. I pray that He will show you how to emulate Him in the face of overwhelming fear. I know, fear can absolutely eat you alive! I ask the Lord to fill you up to overflowing with hope and trust that you would literally feel your soul being fed and filled to the brim. Romans 15:13 says, "Now may God, the source of hope, fill you with all joy and peace as you believe, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Believe, sweet one. His plan for your life has not changed.

Corey Ann said...

Wow Anonymous - I love that prayer and that verse so much! I appreciate your time and words -- I am humbled and left a bit speechless. I am just so very thankful!