Thank you so much for your prayers for us yesterday as we travelled and today as we went through the appointment process at MD Anderson. Everything went very well. Here's the bottom line: We didn't learn or decide anything new today. I'm done for today. Tomorrowing I'm having a brain MRI, and Friday I'm having a PET scan. Then, I'll see the doctor again on Monday. MD Anderson likes to do their own screening and scanning before they devise a treatment plan, and I totally understand that. So, that's what we'll be doing for the next few days. Then, hopefully we'll regroup with the doctor on Monday.
The above photo is in the waiting room this morning. They had those big water tower things, and they were awesome. So peaceful! The whole place really was upbeat and positive, and the appointment was, too. I know that's a result of your specific prayers for us!
So, today Brian is headed back home to work, and Dad will be staying with me in Houston for the next couple of days. I'll tell ya, I don't know what I'd do without so many wonderful people to take care of me. They are the best!
Several people have asked why I'm at MD Anderson if I don't have any detectable cancer. Here's the scientific answer behind it - once you have cancer in your lymph system, you can know that it's circulating through your blood. One doctor said, "It's out of the barn." We feel certain that I have cancerous cells lurking in my body, so we are looking for a treatment that will take care of those cells before they make tumors and cause problems. Cancer, itself, isn't the problem, it's when it takes over regular body functions that it becomes a problem. Another doctor said cancer cells are like neighbors. Good neighbors never make problems, but loud, inconsiderate neighbors make your life miserable. We're trying to make sure that my cancer is a good neighbor. That's probably way more of an explanantion than any of you cared to know, but there you go.
So, we're doing well. I sat in the waiting room and meditated on Psalm 118 this morning before I went into the exam room. Again, I have NO idea what unbelievers do on days like today. This is ONLY possible with the Lord. That's it. I don't think I could exist a single second without His peace, joy, and hope!
I'll admit that I'm never excited about diagnostic tests. Ignorance is bliss. I don't want to know. But, I know that I must know in order to determine the best treatment. And, with the constant help of the Lord, I'll rejoice in the results of the tests.
If they are all clear - Praise the Lord! But, if the are not, Praise the Lord, for He is bringing about major healing in me, and in 50 years everyone will say, "Wow! Look what God did for Lindsey! He healed her! He restored her to health! He showed His extreme power and victory over Satan's attack on Her physical body. Praise be to God Almighty!"
So, still I say, "I trust Him with me. He's healing me. I can rest in His perfect care. I will not fear, for He is with me."