Thursday, December 9, 2010

Resting.

Rest. Do we even know the meaning of the word anymore? It seems like an archaic thing of the past and definitely not a part of our daily living. We are constantly blowing and going through life, waving at each other as we pass on the street. That's just a sign of the times. Our schedules are crammed full of obligations. Some important. Some not. But all are time-consuming.

You guys know that I've been asking for prayer for my work schedule since all of this stuff came about. And, you know that God is a God of the details. We've seen Him work things out in record time. Things that seem inconsequential, even.

I haven't been able to just broadcast all of my plans and thoughts for work on my blog, because you know that you have to go through the proper channels before you announce what's running through your brain. But, you've been praying me through it, and now I can tell you how the Lord has, once again, shown up in a huge way. My heart just loves Him so. His care for me is perfect and evident. And, because of that, I can't help but completely trust Him with Brian and me.

Since this diagnosis came, Brian was adamant that I take some time off to rest and refresh. My job is wonderful, and I love it, but it is very stressful. My husband is unlike any other. His constant care of me is remarkable. He has upheld me, protected me, loved me, prayed over me, and literally saved my life. He is Christ to me. And, all the while, He's a master in the workplace. I praise God for the way that He's equipped Brian and gifted him to handle these trials. I often wish that I could just switch the focus from me to him and say, "Look, without that man, I'd be curled up in a ball in the corner crying my eyes out. He's the one pushing me along. He's the strength in this thing." Cause, that's the truth. I love him with my whole heart.

Anyway, Brian and I came to the agreement that time off was a necessity for me. But, we also knew that insurance consistency was a necessity for me. And, we weren't sure what my options were.

On Monday morning, my wonderful principal took it upon herself to help me through the process. I'm so thankful for her. She's blessed my heart and taken care of me in a big, big way. She drove me to the HR department, and we were able to work it out so that I can work for the remainder of this week and next week, and then I'll be taking an indefinite leave of absence in January. And, my insurance will continue. Praise God, for He's knocked it out of the park, again!

In the Bible it says, "Then Jesus said, 'Let's go off by ourselves to a quiet place and rest awhile." -Matt. 6:31a (NLT). I came across this verse last week, and I knew that the Lord was calling me to retreat, to take some time for me and Him, to refresh my body. I knew that He had orchestrated it, so that we could manage without my salary. It might be tight, but what's a little tightness in the grand scheme of this process of surrender? I'm speechless because of His power.

Will you just praise the Lord with me because of His obvious fingerprints on our life?

1. A year ago He provided a house through a foreclosure that we would be able to sell. If it had been a traditional purchase, there is no way this would've worked out so cleanly. That's Him at work!

2. This year, He provided a job for me that wasn't a traditional classroom setting. I didn't apply for it, He just up and gave it to me. If I was in a classroom with children, this process would be much more complicated. That's Him!

3. In October, He provided a job for Brian that was in town (not an hour commute) with benefits. That means that my husband is local and can carry me on his insurance. That's Him!

4. In October, He gave me the opportunity to stand up publicly at church and proclaim His goodness in ALL things. I stand by that goodness. That's Him!

5. On November 22, He allowed me to have seizures to signal a tumor before it grew any larger. It was small, y'all. Very small. And, there was only one. Thank you, God, for those seizures! That's Him!

6. He allowed the seizures to occur when we had time off. The hospitalization and surgery didn't affect our work schedules. That's Him!

7. He sold our cars within 12 hours of asking Him to do so, so that we could only have one car payment. That's Him!

8. He sold our house within 24 hours of asking Him to do so, so that we could move into town and lower our housing expenses. That's Him!

9. Josh and Lauren have had their house on the market for 8 months. Their house is precious and wonderful, and we kept saying, "Why won't it sell????" I'll tell you why, God was going to use it as a home for the 4 of us. That's Him!

10. He provided a wonderful home for Wally within 24 hours of asking Him to do so. We don't have to worry about Him receiving the very best care. He'll have better care than we could even give him. That's Him!

11. He provided an opportunity for me to take a leave of absence, while still maintainig my insurance. That's huge! That's Him!

12. He's provided people from all over His creation to care for us - pray over us, pack us, move us, feed us, give to us.... That's Him!

So, please trust Him with your life today. Trust that He's got every detail under His perfect control. Trust that you can bring your specific requests before Him, because "the prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective" (James 5:16).

And, rest....

13 comments:

Mandy said...

you will never know how much your faith, postive attitude and blog posts have helped me.

Thank you.

Jeanne said...

Once again, you have blessed me with your transparency. Blessings to you & Brian and perfect healing by Him.

Elizabeth said...

praying for you

Jennifer said...

Your testimony of God's faithfulness is overwhelming, it makes me in awe of Him.

Camille said...

All I can say is Our God is an awesome God ...

Julie-CA said...

Oh Lindsey, reading all these documented account of His goodness in your lives lately, just made my spirit soar inside! You are so right - all those things are HIM! he alone get's the glory! I am so glad you are taking time off. I was hoping you would and really believing He was going to show up big in that area so you would be able to. Hey, I just now thought of the song "His eye is on the sparrow"... what a beautiful picture that song is of how small, fragile and needy we are of Him and how encouraging it is to know He is watching our every move and ready and willing to meet our every need. DITO, to your "Oh how I love Him so!"

*Hi Lindsey's Momma!* :)

Painting 4 Him said...

I am laughing as I am crying, that this would be the specific encouragement you would give today. Dear husby came in tonight after work as I was busy looking up some recipes for candy I wanted to make to sell this weekend...well he said-I think you need to rest tonight. Just come cuddle on the couch with me, you are tired and need rest. My response to him was--no I really want to do this, please let me! Well, he said no, I submitted to him and oh happy day, did he know what I needed. I had already made candies all day today-so peops will be overjoyed, but I wanted to do more. God is so sweet to me, to gift me with your blog-and to encourage me to rest... Blessings dear one!

podso said...

What a list! God is so good.

Alabamamom said...

GOD IS SO GOOD!
My heart has been for you not to have to work through this time so you could rest. Thank You, Lord for Your faithful provisions for Lindsey and Brian.Thank You for all the people You are using to show Your glory and that none of these answers to prayer could happen without You, these are miraculous God things. Thank You for the encouragement to our hearts Lindsey and Brian are. In Jesus name, Amen

Anonymous said...

You are so, so gorgeous. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for bearing witness to His glory.

As always, in prayer,

Barbara

Emma said...

I was listening to some songs today, and you came to mind when I heard this one. Here is the youtube link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dX9-ruvMtrE

It is a hymn called "Jesus, I am Resting" sung by Shelly Moore Band.

Here are the lyrics:

Jesus! I am resting, resting
In the joy of what Thou art;
I am finding out the greatness
Of Thy loving heart.
Thou hast bid me gaze upon Thee,
And Thy beauty fills my soul,
For, by Thy transforming power,
Thou hast made me whole.


Jesus! I am resting, resting
In the joy of what Thou art;
I am finding out the greatness
Of Thy loving heart.

Oh, how great Thy loving kindness,
Vaster, broader than the sea:
Oh, how marvelous Thy goodness,
Lavished all on me!

Yes, I rest in Thee, Beloved,
Know what wealth of grace is Thine,
Know Thy certainty of promise,
And have made it mine.

Simply trusting Thee, Lord Jesus,
I behold Thee as Thou art,
And Thy love, so pure, so changeless,Satisfies my heart,

Satisfies its deepest longings,
Meets, supplies its every need,
Compasseth me round with blessings,
Thine is love indeed.
Ever lift Thy face upon me,
As I work and wait for Thee;
Resting 'neath Thy smile, Lord Jesus

Earth's dark shadows flee.
Brightness of my Father's glory,
Sunshine of my Father's face,
Keep me ever trusting, resting,
Fill me with Thy grace.

Amanda Williams said...

Even though I've never met you, I want you to know how much God is using you. I've told several people who don't believe in God about your story, and it's just such an unbelievable testimony to the God we know and serve. It's very hard for those people to hear your story and just say all that is only a coincidence. Praise the Lord!

Anonymous said...

AMEN!! I love reading your blog....such an inspiration! I pray God will be with you every step of the way.