Friday, December 10, 2010

It's a Woman Thing!

My biggest aim right now is to live a life that is totally, completely saturated with the Holy Spirit. I don't know that I'm doing that 100% of the time, but I do know that life is far more peaceful and joyful when that's the case. I learned this lesson last year. You know, with the 2nd recurrence? Man, I spent about a week in all-out terror. You name it, and I cried about it. Until I think the very presence of God sat on my shoulder and said, "Fear or faith, woman! What's it going to be?" You've heard me talk of those moments where the mind games were almost too much. But, luckily, because of that experience, I haven't really gone through so much fear this time. That's the beauty of trials, they grow your faith and produce perseverance, just like the Bible teaches in James 1. Guess we can trust God's Word. :)

Now, I just know this is His. It makes me kind of angry when people want to discuss my poor prognosis. I get it, folks. The odds are against me, but I've never been a person to stick with the odds. I've always enjoyed a challenge. But, I just want to say to those people, "Do you not understand that the God of the Universe is on my side? Do you not get that He is Jehovah Rapha, The God who Heals? Don't you remember the dozens of accounts in the Bible where He proclaimed, 'Your FAITH has made you well?" See, those are the statistics with which I'm concerned. Those are the truths that count to me. I trust Him. He's proven that He's got this one, and we don't have to worry.

But...

Let me tell you about a little old thing that I think about a lot. Okay. Okay. I worry about a lot. MY HAIR!!! Y'all, I just like looking feminine. Call me crazy, and I know in the grand scheme of things hair is NOT that big of a deal, but I just remember those yucky bald months where I felt that I looked like a bug.

So, I've been praying my heart out that the Lord would show up in my hair situation. I've thought a thousand times about the testimony that I gave at my church where I referenced my hair a couple of times. Obviously, this is an attack from the evil one. He knew my hair was a big deal. He sought out my weakness to attack.

Y'all, I believe that God is bigger than this attack. Last night, as I was brushing it and tugging on it to see if it was secure (it was!), I prayed, "God, I know that you are victorious over all things. I know that Satan's plan is to steal, kill, and destroy me and my joy. But, you've overcome him and the world. Overcome in this!"

Instantly, my thoughts were taken to the words of Luke 21:18-19, "But not a hair of your head will perish. Stand firm, and you will win life!"

You can't imagine the joy that overtook me in that moment of recalling God's Word. I'm standing in faith, knowing that God is a Miracle Worker. He's involved in every single detail, including my hair. And, I trust Him in this.

Will you pray those scriptures over me? I sure do appreciate it! Love you guys. Love you lots!

10 comments:

Julie-CA said...

"Oh Father, I come to Ypu right now with a heart full of Thanksgiving for all you've done and are doing in my special friend. You are being lifted high in her life and many are hearing of your faithfulness who have been consumed with doubt. I agree in unity with Lindsey that You are Jehova Rapha, our God who heals. So I am coming before you now, with a believing heart that You will spare everyone of the hairs on her head. I ask that You would shiel her from every imbalance that typically occurs from radiation. I ask that You would bless her greatly with physical peace, freedom from headaches and hair loss. Reward her Father for her heart full of committment to You. Look favorably upon her as she has been faithful to lift up Your name in everyth trial she has encountered. I am pleading with You my Lord and my King that not a hair on her head would perish, that You would enable her to stand firm in this season and that in the end, she will win life - a life that will testify to Your unmeasurable goodness and grace. In the precious name of Jesus, Amen."

Love you and I've got your back. :)

Lisa said...

I will be praying for your hair in addition to your specific prayer requests. I continue to be amazed by your faith - you are such an inspiration for me and so many others! You have really helped me put my life in a new perspective and bring my tiny insignificant trials to the Lord. For that, I cannot thank you enough. I have been amazed at how much I look up to you, someone I have never met but feels like a close friend by how much I think of you and your family! Continued prayers your way...

k_stin said...

Amazing! Awesome! Praise God! Yes, I will pray with you and believe that He will hold you secure in His arms no matter what the enemy throws at you. How wise of you to recognize Satan's attack at the one vulnerable spot that you had. We will stand with you against this attack.

Anonymous said...

Oh Lindsey - and Julie! - I so love your prayer...YES! I am praying with you, for you, I, too, have your back.

You are NOT alone. Never. Ever. It only (I know) feels that way sometimes.

Thank you for allowing us to pray with you. ("When two or more are gathered in My name....")

And Julie - your prayer made me cry. Talk about Power! Wow.

Barbara

Elizabeth said...

Luke 21:18-19, "But not a hair of your head will perish. Stand firm, and you will win life!"

praying for you

Camille said...

Amen and again I say amen.

c said...

I have goosebumps and tears in my eyes. Isn't it amazing when God gives us such an awesome straightforward word? And as far as I'm concerned (which probably doesn't matter to most people) you have every right to get angry. You do not need to hear anything negative from anyone (I'm sure the doctors do enough of that). If I were you I would say, "Thank you for your concern, but we are trusting God to heal me, and we are trying not to meditate on things that are not from Him. So I'm only going to be able to discuss His goodness and not my weaknesses." I know some people won't like it, but hopefully it will bring the focus back to God. And of course I am praying that your hair will stay firmly attached to your head - as a woman I completely understand.

Courtney

Alabamamom said...

Amen to all the fellow prayer warriors and sisters in the Lord.

Julie-CA said...

Thinking of you...

Paula said...

Lindsey,
Julie could not have said it better. You are right, it is a girl thing. We love to look feminine and pretty with our hair, just the way God made us. We have prayed for your hair before and we are doing it again along with your other petitions.
I am so glad that you realized that satan was attacking you so that we would know how to pray for you.
As for the others, we continue to pray for God's provisions because we know that He alone has plans for us. He takes us through the fire to refine us and mold and make us better. Not to harm us.
We continue to Storm His Throne on yours and Brian's behalf!
The Chaffin's