Sunday, December 5, 2010

Grace Revealed

Good evening, precious ones!

I just plopped down on my new bed in my new room after returning in our new car from taking Wally to his new home, so that Brian can return home to get ready for his new job and I can get ready for my new helplessness. To say the least, this week has been a total whirlwind. Our heads are spinning!

Brian and I just took a little stroll around the block to get some fresh air. We both pretty much walked in silence and sighs. I don't think I've ever experienced two weeks in a row like these two weeks, and I wouldn't recommend the experience.


As I was telling the Lord how much I love Him this afternoon, I heard His voice whisper once again, "What you are experiencing is truly part of my grace for you. Stand firm in it." Then, I exhaled slowly as I remembered the familiar words from 1 Peter 5.

I couldn't help but praise Him even more for taking me (and many of you) through 1 Peter this summer. I'm just in total awe of the way I can see His handprints ALL over this process. Nothing is by chance, but everything is by His masterful design.

Since 1 Peter is now like an old friend to me, I decided to go back through and read bits and pieces of it. My eyes and heart stuck on 1 Peter 5:10b, "So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation."

Those words brought life to my weary spirit today. Again, I was reminded that it is not for us, but for His name's sake.

I praise God for the refinement that He's doing in me. This growing comes with lots of pain, but so many blessings, too.

This morning, as the movers stacked the last load of our stuff into the confines of a storage unit, I whispered a prayer of thanksgiving, "Jesus, thank you for reminding me in a very clear way that the only things that matter are my love for you and my love for others. Everything else is fleeting."

I can see that these lessons ARE part of His grace for me. He is changing me and growing me, and I'm excited to see what He's doing with me. Now that, that is grace revealed.

In other practical/prayer news...

1. Praise God with us for providing a fabulous home for Wally. He's going to be an inside dog in a large house with 27 acres of fenced running room! Perfection!

2. Praise God for providing countless people and resources to get us moved with minimal stress. We are so thankful to all who helped. We couldn't have done it on our own.

3. Pray for Brian as he continues with his new job. He's knocking it out of the park, so far, just like I knew he would. But, that guy has a lot on his plate!

4. Pray for me as I return to work tomorrow. I'm going to need God's major intervention on this one. I'm not feeling up to the task, but I know He will sustain me. Please pray for the Lord to guide me as I determine time off, scheduling, etc. It's a crazy puzzle, but I know we can trust the Lord to take care of this, just as He has taken care of every other detail.

5. Pray for Josh and Lauren as they adjust to a new lifestyle with us. They are so wonderful to allow this arrangement, and I know they need to be covered in prayer.

6. Pray for me as I prepare for whole brain radiation on Tuesday. Pray that the Lord would protect me from the yucky side effects. We know He is all-powerful!

7. Pray that I will adjust to being unable to drive. It's a HUGE adjustment for me!

Friends, I'll say it again-
You've saved me a heap in therapy and counseling! It's so comforting to know that I can come here and be honest and loved. I love you guys so much! Have a blessed week!

And, let's try something new. Ask God to be present in a real way in your week. Then, share with us how you see Him working in your life. I believe there is so much power in simply saying, "Okay, God, I'm gonna move over so you can move in."

Share away!


Anonymous said...

You are an amazing person! I'll be praying for you. Thank you for sharing your battles, I wish you nothing but blessings.

Anonymous said...

praying for you

Becky said...

Been praying for you this week and as I read your post, I was reminded of a quote from church yesterday that really resonated with me..."He (GOD) never wastes our pain." As one who has walked my own breast cancer battle and the upheaval and pain that it brings, it just reminded me of the sweetness that comes along with the pain, because we know that it isn't being wasted. I can't imagine the painful moments that you are facing, you are an encouragement to so many. Many many blessings!

Emily said...

Lindsey-my 12 year old daughter just finished 30 doses of brain radiation in late August. Believe it or not, the radiation was not NEARLY as bad as the chemo was. The biggest side effect she had was fatigue, but no nausea. She did lose some hair and her scalp was a little sensitive, but nothing major. As a matter of fact, Saturday she completed her first 5K ever(St Jude)-in Memphis(we are from Louisiana) so you will be over this radiation in NO TIME! Your story has SO touched me and I have something I would LOVE to allow my daughter to pray over and send you if possible. You can find my email on her website and find out more about her at :
Just look for the "email author" portion on the right side of page-that's me! We are continuing to pray!

Julie-CA said...

I am rejoicing in what seems like a wonderful new home for Wally and for all that was accomplished so smoothly this weekend. You are in my thoughts so often and I am praying for you with your work situation. If the Lord is wanting you to not be working right now/working less, I have no doubt that financially it will work out for that to happen.
Thinking of ya.....

Alabamamom said...

I'm praying that you can bask in God's grace and peace as you begin treatment tomorrow.

I just read a devotion from Proverbs 31 Ministries:Encouragement for Today that was titled "Unwrapping His Presence". After reading it it reminded me of Michael Card's song,"Emmanuel". The lines that really remind me of His grace are "Emmanuel, our God is with us, and if God is with us, who can be against us? Our God is with us, Emmanuel". Know that God is with you and Brian every step of this journey.