2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk
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I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
Lately, I've felt the need to allow the Lord to lead me beside His quiet waters. I've felt the need to pull back, to retreat from the world around me, to take a breather. I think that there are certainly times when the Lord impresses this very idea upon us. We all need restoration. We all need refreshment. It's not a weakness. It's a fact.
As you know, I started a new job when school began. I'm no longer a classroom teacher. Now, I'm a literacy coach. This job has stretched me and challenged me in ways that I didn't even know that I needed to grow. It has required maturity, servant leadership, confidentiality, and prioritizing to the max. It has forced me to love difficult people, to look for the best in others, and to say hard things. It has required me to take a good, hard look at my own knowledge of my job, and to research my heart out when I didn't immediately know answers. It's been a daily professional and personal exercise. And, I'm daily crying out to God for His help, guidance, and wisdom as I do my job. I love it. I'm growing by leaps and bounds every day.
At home, the Lord has been working on Brian and me. He's been giving us ample opportunity to trust Him with His purpose in our life. He's forced us to submit our desires and dreams to His control and His timing. These are not easy lessons to learn. They are usually accompanied by immense stress until both the head and heart agree to relinquish all control to our God who loves us so. This goes against everything that our flesh comprehends. Stress is a spiritual matter. When we're to the point where we truly believe that God's got it ALL under His perfect control, then stress has a way of dissipating.
So, that's what's been on my mind. On several occasions, I've thought, "I need to post." But then, I thought, "No, you need to take a break. You need to allow the Lord to purify you. Then, you can share."
I'm a work in progress. We all are. Living a spirit-filled life requires a daily, moment-by-moment surrender of my will/dreams/desires/worries to God's complete control. We either trust Him, or we don't. I'm trying my best to trust Him.