Saturday, June 19, 2010

My Reaction


Good Saturday Morning, My Fervent Prayer Warriors!

Oh, my heart is full in Jesus this morning! I can't tell you what a blessing it has been to share the news of my God-given health with all of you. Y'all, you have prayed me through seasons high and low, and you have listened to the very achings of my heart. Thank you for sharing in this unspeakable joy with me!

Since yesterday's post was already so long, I didn't want to go into a lot of detail about the results. But, I do want to document the moments surrounding the news, if only for me to go back and reread in later months and years. As much as this is a cozy living room shared by friends, it is also a journal of the Lord's incredible, mighty hand in our life. Brian and I have both been known to sit down and relive our history, as documented on this blog.

Yesterday began in a very normal way. I got up early to take the dogs out and to get Brian off to work. This usually involves making coffee, packing a lunch, and preparing a smoothie for us to split. I did all of those things, and Brian left for another day on the job.

Once he left, I quickly noticed that my stomach was in one big, tangled knot! I was pretty much a wreck! I knew that I would likely be receiving my PET scan results that day, and I was just kind of thinking that ignorance was bliss. At that moment, for all I knew, everything was fine, but one phone call could change EVERYTHING!

I know what you're thinking, "But, you've been preaching the peace of God. Fear not. Don't worry. You've been blogging about these things all week!" And, you are right! I had been, but I was in a moment of weakness. Suddenly, I was having to audibly pray, "God, I'm losing it here. You gotta take this thing from me! Help me to remember that these results don't matter. They don't mean anything."

And, as much as I knew that they DIDN'T matter and that they DIDN'T mean anything, people kept asking me if I knew the results. This has a way of feeding fear.

I got the idea to busy myself with other things. After all, it was my birthday, and I didn't want to waste the whole day worrying about some silly scan. So, I blogged, responded to some text messages, took a few birthday phone calls, etc.

At 9:00AM, I heard the familiar ding of my phone, alerting me of an incoming text message. Immediately, I picked it up, fully expecting it to be a birthday well-wisher. When, I saw my doctor's name at the top of the screen. On Thursday, I texted her to ask her to please let me know as soon as she got the results. It's an enormous blessing to have a doctor who will allow you to text her. I appreciate that so much! She had written one word in the message, "NEGATIVE!!!!!!!!"

Y'all, in that moment my heart soared. A flood of peace came over me, and I immediately began pouring tears and shouting praises to the Lord, Jehovah Jireh. I spent several minutes just voicing worship to Him, for He, alone, is worthy of all the glory in this, and every situation.

I believe that I've received a miraculous, supernatural healing. 6 months ago, my doctor said, "I'm very worried about you. This is not good, and we just don't know what to do." In other words, "This is very serious, and our expectations are the worst." And then, on my birthday, the Lord looked on me with enough favor to allow me a clean bill of health. Only God could give that kind of gift.

I don't even know how to fully express my peace and joy.

As I was trying hard to convince myself not to worry, I kept hearing Philippians 4:8-9, which says, "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you."

Something new struck me as these words played over and over in my head. The Lord doesn't want us to leave space in our minds for negative things. In other words, we are called to be optimists.

Ouch! That hurts my feelings and steps all over my toes! I've never considered myself an optimist, rather a realist. I choose to think that I view things as they really are.

But, the Lord is clearly telling us in these verses that we are to only put excellent, pure, noble, praiseworthy thoughts into our minds. All others are from Satan.

And the result? PEACE. The God of Peace will be with you.

Wow! In other words, God is to be the filter of our thoughts. As things come in, we should submit them to Him, asking, "Is this truth or a lie?" The scripture says, "Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me..." This means that the God of Heaven should be our measure of truth. And the result is His supernatural peace.

I'm convicted today, and challenged to use the Lord as the basis for my thoughts. Nothing else is worth thinking about.




Plus, who could be anxious when you have this at your feet?

Is that not the biggest pile of laziness that you've ever seen? Just giving you a little glimpse into my blogging environment. This is how we do it on Pleasant Drive. There is an entire house for them to relax in, but they choose to be as close by as possible.

I pray that I'll follow their lead and be as close by the Lord as possible.

Enjoy your Saturday!

16 comments:

LAKERFAN55 said...

That is GREAT news! What a great birthday present!! And I love how the dogs are protecting you!

LAKERFAN55 said...

Lindsey, In case you don't know, LAKERFAN55 is Dennis Fletcher. Hope you and Brian have a great weekend!

Kristina said...

Lindsay, it makes me cry tears of joy to read this. How exciting!

Jenster said...

i have been reading your blog through a friend of mine and have been praying for you on the side lines. i am so happy/relieved that you are getting better. take care.

Erin said...

Tears of joy, over here. Praise God!!!

Marla said...

I read yesterday's post... but it was before the edit. I am so very happy you for! I'm even crying. God is so good! :)

Marla @ www.asthefarmturns.wordpress.com

k_stin said...

Wow! I teared up at that word: "NEGATIVE!" And I'm still crying tears of thankfulness. Jehovah Jireh, indeed! So happy for you!

Anonymous said...

awesome! God is good.

Anonymous said...

Praise God! Im an East Texan and stumbled upon your blog. I love reading it. So inspiring! God be with you and you should go out and celebrate!

A Nerd and A Free Spirit said...

Praise the Lord! That's awesome, Lindsey! Excited to hear more!

~Kathryn

Jill said...

praising the Lord with you!

Tanya said...

I just got home from a weekend getaway and I am absolutely THRILLED to read your great news!! I haven't even read your posts yet, just the good news. I'm so grateful.

I was just reading the rest of the book "90 minutes in Heaven" this weekend and the power of prayer in the man's life and it was so inspiring. Then I come home and read you news and know that prayer from others plays such a big part. praise Him!

April said...

Amazing birthday present! Tears of joy flowing here! Praise God!

Meg said...

God is so very good. How amazing!

Amanda Williams said...

Praise the Lord! This is wonderful news!

THE Stephanie said...

Praise God for your healing! My mom was healed of cancer 10 years ago. Isn't it great to serve such a loving and powerful God?!?