Lately, I've been thinking a lot about callings. I, for one, believe that the Lord impresses upon us certain desires and dreams that are perfectly suited to the gifts, talents, and abilities that He has given us. The New Testament has a few references that allude to this idea.
Ephesians 4:1 [NIV] says, "As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received."
2 Thessalonians 1:11 [NIV] says, "With this in mind, we constantly pray for you, that our God may count you worthy of his calling, and that by his power he may fulfill every good purpose of yours and every act prompted by your faith."
I think that I've been thinking about this a lot more lately because I feel like this whole cancer deal is in the bag. I fully believe that the Lord has my healing under control, and thus it's not something that I need to be focused on. It seems like my life is getting back to normal, where I don't ponder my destiny every single day. The fact is, my destiny is the same today that it was the day I was born, and it is the same now as it will be in ten years from now. I say all of this to say that my thoughts are free to think about other things.
With that, I always go back to the calling that I believe the Lord has placed on my life. You see, for several years now (with a few breaks to focus on health), I have felt the Lord calling me into full-time ministry. I feel as though the Lord is sharpening me and pruning me to look more like Him and less like me. Thank goodness!
Here's my problem; I have no idea how to act out this calling. I have no idea what steps to take or what path to go down, so I sit and wait. I firmly believe in Psalm 46:10 [NIV], "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." I believe that, until God moves us, we should sit still.
Do you know how frustrating this is?!??!? I'm sure that you do. We have all felt extreme impatience with God's timing. We have all had the experience of trying to do it our way, instead of God's way.
I just keep praying, "Okay God. I'm here. I'm healthy. I'm willing to do whatever you want me to do for your kingdom work. Now..... What do you want me to do?"
I'm sure that the Lord gets a kick out of me.
So, I'm curious. What do you feel the Lord has suited you for and called you to do?