Monday, March 1, 2010

Transitioning

When juggling a serious life situation, there always seems to be a specific cycle of reactions from others. In the beginning, the endurers, for lack of a better term, have to make the important decision about whether to be public or private with their struggles. For us, this was somewhat of a "no brainer". I've said a hundred times that I believe with my whole heart that this is for God's glory, and not for any lesser purpose. Trials usually are for the glory of God. So, for God to receive the maximum glory from this situation, others have to know about the situation. This doesn't mean that I've bared every single, intimate detail to perfect strangers. I most certainly have not. There have been countless personal items that we've had to deal with on a private level. But, on the whole, I knew immediately that this had to be a shared process. We can't bear it on our own. We need you.

Then, the struggle moves from a personal, lonely battle to a public spectacle. The outpouring of cards, notes, calls, emails, and gifts is overwhelming and humbling. The prayer commitments are huge, and people love on you almost to the point of suffocation. I mean this in the nicest way. We needed that. I needed to know that many many many people "had my back", so to speak. I needed to know that I had an army of support. I needed, and the Lord provided. This is always the case.

Then, the newness wears off. The shock becomes common and the sting seems to dull. This is when the real battle begins for the endurers. And, this is our current phase. We have entered the stage in which this is simply our life. It's not what we would've chosen, but it's what we have. And, I am confident that it is God's very best for us. This is the point that really matters. Of course I could handle the initial stuff with grace. Who couldn't with so much support? But, this is where the rubber meets the road. This is where we find what I'm made of. It's the long-suffering that counts.

So, can I petition you to pray specifically once again?

- Pray that I will suffer well for the cause of Christ. Pray that even in the quiet moments of solitude that I will exemplify Christ. Pray that when the hovering of support dies down, that I would praise Him even more. It's all about the Lord.

- This sounds petty, but pray for my sleep. Y'all, my hormones are a roller coaster, and I can't seem to maintain a constant temperature to save my life! During the day, I am continually dealing with hot flashes, and at night I am waking up almost every hour with night sweats. Perhaps this is over sharing, but I'm exhausted!

- Pray for safe travel and a wonderfully informative and helpful doctor's appointment on Tuesday. I am headed back to the doctor who is working with me on nutrition and immunity building. Pray for his wisdom, understanding, and God's perfection in his guidance of me.

Please know that we are doing great. In fact, I was greatly encouraged today as I stood in line at the health food store. I had a heap of organic, whole foods. The lady behind me said, "Wow! I should eat like you. Do you always eat like that?" I just briefly told her my plan and the reasons behind it. She said, "I would NEVER have guessed that YOU have cancer. Not in a million years." To me, these kind words encouraged me to press on with all of this. It is a lot of work, a ton of money, and a commitment of time. But, if it's working, I'm game! I feel as though the Lord has enlightened me, and shown me a way of His health. And, I'm committed to it. Well, we're committed to it. Brian is gladly eating all of the crazy concoctions that I put in front of him. What a sport!

14 comments:

Jill said...

Lindsey, just wanted to let you know that you and Brian continue to be in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you specifically. P.S. the documentary "Food, Inc." is excellent and talks about the food industry-not particularly pertaining to you or your current diet, however they do talk about that historcally the less we spend n our food, the more we spend on medical care. So be encouraged, eating like you are is what would keep us all away from the doctor less!

Anonymous said...

oops- I mean keep us away from the doctor more!

Julie-CA said...

I prayed for everything you asked and am excited to hear all about the Lord's faithfulness in these areas. And no matter what, in all of these obsticals He has allowed you to walk through, His grace is sufficient. Thank you for sharing this journey in the way that you do. It's so refreshing to read a blog that always exalts Him above all else. It's a rare gem these days. I love it.

Leslie said...

I will continue to pray for you! You have become one that is on my heart daily and I will be praying these specific things! I love that you give very specific requests and things on your blog. Though I don't ever see you, I am able to pray and keep up with you daily! I love you...hang in there!!!:)

Anonymous said...

i'm praying for you

Emily said...

Lindsey-that lady behind you in line was put there for a reason, I have no doubt. You may never know what journey she has on her horizon. The sharing of your story with her could be the one thing that encourages her to endure her own battle down the road. Bless you for being so transparent with all of us-you may consider yourself an endurer, but you are an ENCOURAGER to me. Sending prayers up!

Erin said...

Still praying, friend.

Anonymous said...

Last time I knelt at the communion rail in church I specifically included Lindsey and her family from Texas in my prayers.

Even though I have never met you nor your family, I hope you gain daily strength from knowing those who read your blog think the world of your courage and you continue to be an inspiration and a role model of a strong woman of faith to us all.

Blessings from Iowa...

Alabamamom said...

Hope that the appointment went well. We'll be praying for these specific things.

Jana said...

To Anonymous, I LOVED Food, Inc., too!

Lindsey, the lady at the food store was right--you looked almost glowingly healthy when I saw you yesterday. However, I know you suffer more than what you put up for public consumption, and I pray that those private moments are filled with peace and rest.

Chelsea said...

Lindsey,
I read your blog and pray for you every day without fail. My grandmother's entire church is also praying for you. I always joke that she has a "direct line" with her prayer so when I knew of your situation I called her first and asked her for prayer. Each day as I stress and struggle and fail to be the person iknow God would have me to be, I think of you. Dealing with obstacles so much larger than my petty problems and the amazing grace that you have shown all the while. Your blog has almost become a devotional to me and I truly appreciate you and your sharing. ;)

Amy said...

Lindsey,
Charlie and I pray for you continually. Thank you for letting us know how to pray specifically. I think that's so important. I am glad that you got to take it easy this morning and watch the sun come into your living room-although I TOTALLY understand the dog hair dilema and we just have one hairy golden!! Love, Amy

Little Lovables said...

My father had Leukeima and several other cancers as well due to his yars of treatments. He did a lot of whole foods and natural supplements on top of the traditional medicine and it really helped! Good for you for going that route as well :)