I have to let you in on a little confession. For the past week or two, I haven't done the best on my nutrition plan. I have eaten out about 4 or 5 times (after not eating out for over a month), and I haven't been eating as many vegetables. More grains, more agave nectar, more seeds and nuts, more beans, and less veggies. Well, my stomach began a slow attack on me, starting about Wednesday. My digestion was painful, to put it delicately. This problem worsened and worsened, until I felt terrible last night. I mean, just plain awful. I said to Brian, "This chemo is beginning to take its toll, but why now?" We investigated the situation and realized that, while I wasn't eating any prohibited foods, I was also not eating enough fresh, raw food. Bad news bears! So, after a miserable night and morning, I decided to make some changes - to go back to what I know is right. So, today I went to the grocery store and stocked up on produce. Our refrigerator is now busting at the seems with good-for-me foods, and I'm happy to report that my aches, pains, and digestive difficulties have now subsided. So, there you have it. What we put in our bodies makes an ENORMOUS difference in the way we feel!
Though I wish that this wouldn't have occurred, I am glad to know that there is value in what I'm doing. I had been feeling great when I was sticking to 9+ veggies a day, but after a week of less care, my body was a mess. Hopefully, I won't forget this little cause and effect situation, and I'll stick to what I know is right.
This reminded me of living my life for Christ. I know what to do. I know what Christ's desire is for me and for my life, yet I don't always live the way that He instructs me to live. This is my sin nature getting the best of me. I am so glad that His mercies are new every morning, and that I don't have to worry about my failures. I am sure to mess up constantly without His regular intervention in my life.
On another note, please pray for me as I begin radiation tomorrow. I am having my "marking" session tomorrow. I actually already did this once, before my last surgery. In fact, it was the reason for my last surgery. Please pray that they are able to radiate all of the areas that need to be radiated. Please pray that they will mark me perfectly. And, please pray that I would not have any adverse side effects to the radiation, that my skin, tissues, organs would not react to the radiation. Basically, I just want it to do its job to take care of the cancer, and that's it. No lymphedema, no problems with my reconstruction, no skin burns, and no scar tissue.
Thank you for your prayers for my continued health and healing. They are felt.
Love to each and every one.