Thursday, March 4, 2010

I want my hair back!!! (sort of)

Today, I was looking for some pictures on my computer, and I stumbled across engagement pictures that were taken about two years ago. Quickly, I opened the photos so that I could be taken back to that carefree time. I can remember these days very well. Things were SO simple! And, they seemed SO complicated. Man, I'd give anything for those days. I remember we fretted over where to live, what to do, etc. I'm not sure what it is about engagement and newlywedded bliss that make a couple want to totally turn their lives upside down, but there is something. Almost every couple that I know hasn't been content to just get married. No, that's far too easy. Instead, we decide to do crazy things like sell our houses, change jobs, get different cars, move across the globe, etc. Why can't we just get married? Isn't that a big enough deal?

Anyway, I digress.

Here are a couple of the photos:

And, here is our most recent picture:

My, we have aged! At first this upset me to some degree. Not to the point where I was crying, or anything. But, I just thought, "Wow! We'll never get that youthfulness back. That season is gone."
But then, I remembered the verse in Job (12:12), "Is not wisdom found among the aged? Does not long life bring understanding?"
On the one hand, I would give anything to have those days back. But, truthfully, I wouldn't.
The lessons that we've learned in the last two years have been hard ones to learn. They have aged us. They have forever changed us. But now, when I look at us, I see a far greater bond between us and a far greater knowledge of our God and His work in us.
So, as I look back on these photos of the past, now I'll view them through a new lense. Rather than seeing youth that we'll never get back, simplicity that is long gone, and hair that I desperately desire, I'll see two lives that were not yet merged and two people who did not comprehend God's lessons in faith.
Thank you, Lord, for loving us enough to age us.


Q, La, and Gooner said...

Oh yes, time and experience does tend to change things a bit!

Julie-CA said...

Oh Lindsey, your posts are so wonderful. So transparent. So spiritually edifying. Everytime I type in your address, I am excited for the uplifting words that I know are sure to greet me. I truly cherish each and every one of your posts. I just called my husband over to me and had him read this with me. Afterwards, he smiled gently and said to me "another great post." Yes, so true is this to say the least.

Kelli Davis said...

Before I even read the last of your post underneath the pictures, I was looking at the 2nd engagement picture thinking, "Man, those are two babies. Two kids who haven't really experienced life yet. They don't even know there's all sorts of stuff out there that will try to hurt them, and try to separate them." And then, scrolling to your "now" picture, you're still you, but you're more YOU than the engagement picture. Obviously two people who have lived life, and are choosing to live it happily, with each other, and God. Pretty cool.

Whitney said...

With age comes marks of beauty you would never have without the ups and downs of life. You two look GREAT.

Erin said...

You are beautiful, friend.

Lelia said...

Lindsey - you have a truly wonderful outlook on life. I admire that. Thank you for sharing your story each step of the way. I also look back on my experience with cancer, and am thankful for what God taught me during that time. As for the hair, I too longed for my former long locks - without the kinky chemo curls. What is it with the different texture and curls?!? But that has eventually gone away too. God is good.

Anonymous said...

i'm praying for you

Tanya said...

Well, I don't think you've aged that much since the engagement photos and I think you look beautiful in both! My husband and I were looking through our marriage pics from 12+ years ago and how young we looked! Funny thing is that now I am SO much more confident and happy with myself than I was then in that young body.

I hope you're having a wonderful, health-filled weekend and feeling energized.

Alabamamom said...

I don't think you look aged. I see you both as matured. You are an even more handsome couple than you were before. You see in the more recent picture a couple whose love has deepened and grown. There is a look of love in both of your eyes that shows that you will walk through anything with each other and that you're crazy in love.

Paula said...

Oh,sweet, Brian and Lindsey,you guys are so blessed. Yes, disease ages both of you, but you are both more beautiful now than before. There is a peace in your eyes that can only come from your faith.
As for your hair, you are more beautiful now than ever. With wisdom comes beauty. I know your body feels really old on days and those are the days that God is trying to tell you to REST my dear.
Sometimes we forget to look for those stolen moments to just rest in His arms. It's okay to kick back and simplify, simplify, simplify.
You sweet people are alway in our prayer and I've missed your encouragements. I need to take a lesson from you on resting.
Love to you both! Stormin His Throne on your behalf!
Paula Chaffin

~from my front porch in the mountains~ said...

It isn't age. It is Wisdom...
And wisdom is a wonderful thing to have.
xo, misha