Thursday, February 4, 2010

Writers' Block

I'll probably never claim to be a writer. I am simply a person who enjoys journaling my way through life. I have now started this post five times. I just can't seem to get my thoughts in order. Lately, I have started praying before I write, that the Lord would embody my words and thoughts, so that they might be His words and thoughts. I know when I get in the way, I'll make a royal mess.

Anyway, today I have so many little snippets that I would love to share, but most of them are unrelated. So, then I thought, "Well, I should just tell about one thing. Choose the best thing." After all, that's how I teach children to write, and it always seems to work out.

So, I tried to narrow it down to one thing. But, then it makes me sad to not tell about the other things. I want to be able to read back over my posts in five years and say, "Wow! God was IN that in a BIG way." I don't want to forget a single blessing that He gives me. They are all His, and I actually have tears in my eyes right now as I sit here and remember that. This is all His.

I want to tell you about the text messages that I often get in the mornings on my way to work. They sustain me and energize me. They allow me to remember that I am loved and cared for, and that the Lord has gifted me with an enormous support network.

I want to tell you about 2 of my dear friends who separately gifted me with Whole Foods gift cards today. I want you to know how Brian and I pray for God's financial provision because we know that this is not cheap, but that it is His, and all we have is His. These two ladies, because of their faithfulness to the Lord, met our needs in a very practical way today. And, I love them both so much. They are two of the kindest, most helpful, and loving people that I know.

I want to tell you about the precious lady who subs at our school who took the time to copy scriptures about healing for me. What a joy and a delight to return to work to find God's word on my desk. God was there to greet me this morning.

And, I wrestled with the idea of telling you about the phone call that I had with my insurance case worker. As it turns out, my proposed regimen doesn't fit into their normal little formula, and so there is a chance they won't cover it. We need prayer for this. I can't worry about this right now, so we're just taking it one day at a time.

And, one of my unsuccessful posts told about my post-op appointment for my oophorectomy. I was just overwhelmed at my doctor's love for me today. She sat and cried for me and confessed that she is NOT okay with all of this.

And, I knew that I had to tell you about the card that I got from one of the most dedicated prayer warriors that I've ever met. On the inside it had these verses:

Even to your old age and gray hairs
I am he, I am he who will sustain you.
I have made you and I will carry you;
I will sustain you and I will rescue you.
-Isaiah 46:4

I will lead the blind by ways they have not known,
along unfamiliar paths I will guide them;
I will turn the darkness into light before them and make rough places smooth.
These are the things I WILL do;
I will not forsake them.
-Isaiah 42:16

So, there you have it. Today was a busy day full of lots of blessings.


Tyler Texas Real Estate Lorri Loggins said...

Wow, what an inspiration you are to all of us! You do not know me, but I have been following you on your blog....your mother's Sunday School teacher, Donna Shay...told me about your blog. I pray for are loved, and MY GOD hears your prayers. I love saying, "MY GOD"... :) My little mascot on my blog, is "Surely"...meaning "with confidence, without doubt"...Surely is in the Bible numerous times. I just know that you will be "surely" healed. From one blogger, and believer to another. God Bless you and keep you!

one of nettie's girls said...

Even in writer's block you manage to encourage. I am so glad that people are letting the Lord minister to you through them. It's wonderful that He uses the ordinary to accomplish more than we can imagine.

Makenzie Leigh said...

I love how you include God in each and every one of your posts, I love God with all that is in me, and I think that it is great that I can look on here, and find fellow people that believe in God. I will have you and your husband in my prayers, I assure you, all things are possible through christ the savior, if you believe.. and I have faith that God will help get you through this.
<3withlove.. Makenzie.

Unknown said...

Still praying for you and God's Blessings.

Anonymous said...

i'm praying for you

Anonymous said...

Lifting you up and covering you with prayer!

Julie-CA said...

Could you share with all of us sometime some of the insights you are learning about certain food and it's negative/positive effects on the body? I would love to hear these tid-bits of wisdom you and Brian are discovering when it comes to nutrition. I personally notice a world of difference in my mood and mental clarity when I eat whole foods vs. processed. It's so blatently obvious to me just by my bodies response to certain things that the Lord did not intend for our bodies to function off those things. We eat very healthy and have become runners and oh what a wonderful difference a healthy body makes on day to day life. I can almost hear it thanking me and it rewards me with energy, clarity and an overall sense of stability. Oh thank you Lord for the wonderful foods you made available for us to eat! :) Thjis subject absolutely facinates me and I really would love to hear everything and anything you have to share in this area. I am praying for you and thank you again for always using your blog to edify others and to glorify and honor our Lord.

Michele said...

Oh Lindsey ~ you are such a terrific writer...I love coming to your blog to not only find out how you are, but to read about your faith in the Lord. You are such an inspiration to me. I know God is watching over you and please know that I pray for you daily.

Big hugz,

elizabeth said...

i have been reading you for a few months now. i am OVERWHELMED with your beauty in the storm of cancer.
i too have cancer..stage 3 melanoma. EVERY DAY is a fight..a choice.
i laughed and cried at your problems getting thoughts together today..cause that is ME. when i LET the 'cancer' thoughts take over my mind..i am lost. so, i practice trying to keep my mind in the HERE AND NOW, and focus. it is teaching me that, for sure.
THANK YOU for giving so many of 'us' the words/voice we need others to read.
i love you and send 'positive thoughts' into the universe for you...WE ALL need people like you. the world needs you..
♥love from here to there♥

Alabamamom said...

It's a wonderful blessing to read all the Lord is doing in, through, and for you. We'll be praying for His provision for the treatments. It's a comfort to know that He's not asleep at the wheel. He has you in the palm of His hands.

Anonymous said...

I'm praying hard for you! Your positive attitude is a blessing!

Tanya said...

I hope today is filled with as many blessings as yesterday :)

Anonymous said...

My prayers are with you daily. Praying your week end wasn't too rough, but as always through Christ you will shine and lift Him up to others. Thank you for your witness and encouragement to others. Continue to let God's glory shine through you.

Paula said...

Brian and Lindsey,
I want you to know that I feel like Meg Ryan every morning when I get and go to my computer to check your blog. I go with excitement to see what Our God has done for you and through you that day or the previous days. I wait with anticipation for each post for a new way to pray for you both. And by the way, I'm sure that you've noticed that I always address it to Brian and Lindsey. That is because, although you are the "carrier", he is "bearer". This disease has affected you both and changed your lives forever equally.
I have really been stumped by this nutritional thing and living in the south. You are so right, everything we do revolves around eating. I'm thinking you guys will be educating alot of people and having a healthier group of friends and family. But, I am still praying about it because it is such a social thing and eating organic is exspensive.
Thank you for your daily words of encouragement in the midst of your suffering. God has been so good to give you the gift of words. For that we are all thankful.
Have a blessed new week!
Stormin' the Throne on your behalf!
The Chaffin's