I wish that I always lived my life open to the idea that God truly does have my best interests at heart. Too many times, I fight Him tooth and nail, only to bring unnecessary grief upon myself.
After I was diagnosed with cancer the first time, I immediately knew why the Lord had brought Brian into my life so quickly, and why our relationship progressed so rapidly. God knew I needed that man with me to go down this path. His provision of my husband was in His perfect timing and plan.
Now, after being diagnosed with cancer for the second time, I realize why the Lord put us in our home when He did. We sold our house last February, almost one year ago. During that time, I was in the middle of chemo and it was a very speedy closing, so we decided to rent for a year. Toward the end of the summer, we began to look online at houses. We knew that our lease wasn't up until January, but we just wanted to keep our eyes open. In October, Brian found our current house online, and we quickly jumped at it. Because of some unusual variables, we were able to close on our house, move into our house, but not pay for our house until January, when our lease was up. Perfect! It was all a bit stressful at the time, but now I get it.
You see, if we would've waited until January to buy a house, we would've just moved in, right in the middle of all of this stuff. But instead, we are now settled and happy in our new home. We're not worrying about a move.
And, I LOVE our house. It isn't big or fancy, and we have big dreams for home improvements. But, it suits us. We are outside of town, away from the busyness. In fact, it takes me about 25 minutes to drive in to work. I love that time. I just turn up the praise and worship music as loud as I can, and sing my heart out to the Lord. What a perfect way to start the day.
Now, I know that this too shall pass. Soon, we'll be able to look back on all of this and say, "Ohhhh, that's what God was doing during that time." Just because this isn't fun and it can be scary, does not mean that the Lord isn't in it. He is, folks. He is right here, in our midst, conditioning us to do His work.
Think about your own life. In what situations can you look back and say, "Ohhhh! Now I get it!" Leave a comment and tell us about it. I can't wait to hear you brag on the Lord's work in you.
A quick prayer request:
-We have a big day ahead of us on Tuesday. At this time, I can't go into details, but please pray that the Lord would surround us with His presence, that He would go before us. Pray for discernment and for God's perfection. Pray that He would direct our decisions, and that He would make them for us. Pray for protection from any wrong or harmful decisions.
Love to you all!