Saturday, February 20, 2010

In need of refreshing...

Today, I have either been laying in the bed or laying on the couch all the livelong day. I woke up, full of excitement of what the day might hold, and after taking a shower I pretty much sank into the chair in our bedroom. From that point on, I ventured from one lounging apparatus to the next, not really having the energy to do much else. Around 1:00pm or so, I ventured downstairs to find a perfectly tidy house. Brian has worked his tail off to make sure that everything is "just so", for he knows that I can't rest unless it is.

So, this afternoon, when I was feeling particularly depleted of energy, my wonderful husband suggested a protein shake. After all, my surgeon has been commanding me to consume large amounts of protein for the next two weeks. I did this pretty well yesterday, but my uneasy stomach has led me to eat very little today. But, I know that a healthy diet makes a healthy body, so against my wishes, I managed to down a protein shake.

Y'all, on the whole this surgery has really taken it out of me. I have NO energy. I've managed to stay off of pain pills today, but my activity level has been nonexistent. I didn't expect this, because I bounced right back from the last 2 surgeries. So, I need some major prayer. PLEASE!

1.) Pray for a total and complete recovery from surgery, without any complications

2.) Pray for restored energy, so that I might feel well enough to get up and about. I HATE sitting and laying. I feel so useless, but maybe this is the rest that I was pleading for last week. I'm forced to let my body rest and recoup.

3.) Pray for my precious Brian. He has a lot on his plate right now as he deals with me and with life. I hate feeling that I am physically unable to help him.

4.) Pray for renewed strength through the renewed mind of Christ. An idle mind is never a good thing. Pray that the Lord would continually set my mind and Brian's mind on things above, not on earthly things.

5.) Pray that the Lord would supernaturally take care of the minute details of life that must be done, but we simply don't have the energy or focus to do.

6.) Pray that the Lord would give me the discipline to eat the things that I need to eat and take the supplements that I need to take.

Sometimes, we have mountaintop experiences with the Lord, where we feel as though everything we do is perfectly orchestrated by His mighty sovereign hand. Whether we realize it or not, this is the case ALL of the time. However, today I'm feeling a bit defeated. I'm feeling tired, weary, and in need of refreshing. Can you pray me through this valley? For, I want to shout from the rooftops and let all the world know how great is My God!


Alabamamom said...

Dear Sweet Lindsey,
Please enjoy this time of rest the Lord has given you. The oopherectomy alone is enough to take your energy,with 2 other surgeries besides that, along with chemo, your body needs some rest. The Lord is allowing you time just to "Be still and know that I am God". It doesn't mean you're weak by taking it easy for a few days. It is giving your body a chance to be refreshed and renewed a little before you begin radiation. You don't want to go into radiation treatments being exhausted. I'm not saying that you have to stay in bed all day. I'm just saying when you feel completely depleted of energy, just take a little time to rest. We are constantly praying for you.

Anonymous said...

lifting you up in prayer!

Anonymous said...

i am praying for you. as psalm 91 says, he is covering you with feathers, take refuge under his wings.

God knows what you need and with him nothing is impossible.

2nd chronicles not dismayed by this vast army for the battle is not yours but God's.

Julie-CA said...

I will pray for you Lindsey.
Here's a suggestion for ya for the remainder of your evening... Write down every good thing the Lord has done in you and through you in this process. Think back and record all the marvelous ways He has been faithful to draw you and others closer to Him. Have Brian draw you a nice hot bath, position your list where you can see it in the tub and then be refreshed as you meditate on His goodness. All the while, drinking another protein shake with a cute umbrella of course. :)

Anonymous said...

Healing is done best while we sleep, and at rest brings up next best. Our bodies are busy using energy for healing, and when it's needed for that of course we feel wiped out when trying to divert it elsewhere. Elsewhere isn't important at the moment. Healing is.

Patience, Dear Heart. Delight in the luxury of curling up all day in your beautiful home. NOTHING is more important than honoring your body's needs for healing time.

I know you know that. I also know it can be frustrating. You've been through so much - allow your body to catch up.

In prayer always,


Leslie said...

Sweet friend...a long time ago the Lord encouraged me with Psalm 23:2-3 in a new way I had never seen before...He MAKES me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters he restores my soul...Sometimes those of us that are the busy/productive types and have a hard time resting, sitting, and relaxing have to be MADE to lie down in those green pastures:). Enjoy this time and rest sweet friend...these days are a rare and precious gift. I will be praying for you as you are resting and being renewed...:)

Marla said...

I will be praying for you. Rest is good. Take advantage of it.

Jana said...

Rest. It's non-negotiable, so just go on and give in to it.

I had a unilateral oophorectomy about 10 years ago. I was off work for 2 weeks. So, for 1/2 the surgery you had, I was out for twice as long. And then, I had the luxury of waiting another couple of years before having another surgery. And I wasn't fighting cancer. My point? Well, you know how I hate to sit still and not be knee-deep in a project. But I learned that without rest, there is no healing. Sometimes, rest and healing *is* the project.

I am praying for all your needs. Much love to you.

Anonymous said...

I know it's hard for you to rest. I know what you to feel like - I also hate feeling unproductive. However, I want you to know that you are not being unproductive, but this is the way your body heals (by God's design). Please let yourself rest in the "shadow of the Almighty". Take this time and enjoy just laying around. The energy will come back in God's time, but right now I really feel like God wants you to take it easy.


Opie Dawn said...

You are in my prayers.

one of nettie's girls said...

I will be praying for energy and strength for you and Brian. Embrace the time of rest that God is granting you now. Your body needs it. In due time, He will restore your strength as you need it.

Isaiah 40:29 "He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak."

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Tanya said...

I agree that you need rest!!! Maybe you two could rent some great movies and just spend the day doing will keep your mind off of any negative thoughts too!

HUGS and continued prayer to you.

Paula said...

Brian and Lindsey,
After reading your blog tonight, this song by Selah came to my mind.We will continue to pray for strength and healing. This kept me going many times through my dialysis and transplant. Press on and know that you have a mountain of people "Stormin' His Throne" on your behalf. You both are loved!!
The Chaffin's

Lyrics to Press On :
When the valley is deep
When the mountain is steep
When the body is weary
When we stumble and fall

When the choices are hard
When we're battered and scarred
When we've spent our resources
When we've given our all

In Jesus' name, we press on
In Jesus' name, we press on
Dear Lord, with the prize
Clear before our eyes
We find the strength to press on

In Jesus' name, we press on
In Jesus' name, we press on
Dear Lord, with the prize
Clear before our eyes
We find the strength to press on
To press on

Cheri said...

Lindsey, I've spent time tonight reading through your blog and will pray for your healing and recovery. I applaud your choice to eat a live food diet but do have a few questions. My mom had breast cancer at age 38, pre-menopause, and my sister and I have been having regular mammograms since age 25 and are of course aware of our possible risk.

I am currently being treated for hormone issues, mainly estrogen dominance and progesterone deficiency. My main job right now is to eliminate ALL estrogen from my life, whether I ingest estrogens or get exposed to them through beauty products, etc.

That said, I found Flaxseed oil t be one of the HIGHEST sources of plant estrogen I could find, so I quickly stopped using that and switched to cod liver oil. And of course, no soy allowed for me.

So I was wondering, how does eating soy and flax seed bode for your estrogen-receptive cancer? Do the books or your mentor advise on that? What books are you following? I have several and firmly believe in what you are doing. I also comsume that barley green nastiness everyday myself! I am also addicted to green smoothies and eat one almost every day of the week. Yummy! That is good. Are you allowed to have those? I have more info on my recipes for green smoothies on my blog.

Take good care.

ANN WRIGHT said...

I am praying for your strength to return quickly. I am praying that the physical rest refreshes your body and your spirit. Be kind to yourself. Take it easy a few days. Listen to your body and don't push yourself - it is not mind over matter at this point. I am praying for Brian too - I know he is tired and concerned about you and is doing everything to make your life easier right now - that is alot to handle. Hope you have a quiet day and can relax!

Di said...

Sweet Lindsey, for as long as I have known you, you have always been a diligent worker, a go getter, and a planner. I can only imagine how hard it is for you to just be still and I know how much you hate it. :) For healing however, rest is so vital. Know that I am praying for you and for Brian, that God gives you exactly what you need exactly when you need it... and that, I am sure, is why he felt it necessary to give you this day of rest. I am coming up to Tyler in March and if your feeling up to it I would love to see you.
love ya,

Exodus 33:14
The LORD replied, "My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest."