Oh, I don't know about you, but for me, it was an enormous blessing to see the sun today. The wind was blustery and the temperatures were chilly, but there is just something so comforting about the bright sunshine. I yearn for the warm days of spring and the hot days of summer. I could use some warmth!
As I was driving home this afternoon, it was a little earlier than usual. Starting last night, and into today, I really haven't felt all that well. I don't feel horrible, but I certainly don't plan for this nausea and these joint pains to stick around. One of my teacher friends was kind enough to finish up the day with my class so that I could come home and rest. My grade level is incredible! All three of these women are unique in their own special way, but they are all master teachers and wonderful people. I love them.
Anyway, as I was driving home, I remembered something. About a year ago, Brian and I started really feeling itchy in our current life situation. We just felt deeply that the Lord had better things for us than what we were doing. I remember us praying specifically at that time, "Lord, we want to be in the center of your will. We'll do anything. We'll go anywhere. Just give us a ministry for you through our life. Use us as your tools and vessels." Then, at some point along the way, we stopped praying this specific prayer. I'm not sure why we stopped or what made us stop, but as I was driving along today, I suddenly remembered this.
I thought, "Oh my word! I told God that I would go anywhere and do anything, if only He would use me for His purposes. That is exactly what He's done!"
At this point, cancer is not consuming my thoughts like it did for several weeks. It would be inaccurate for me to say that I never think about it, but it is definitely not on my mind like it was a few weeks ago. But today, I realized that I committed to do anything for the Lord. I did not exclude a fight for my life, not that this would've stopped the Lord from using something as extreme as cancer to teach me. But, I was immediately astounded at how the Lord has answered my prayer. He has allowed me to go to great lengths to know Him more. How many people my age get to do that? For that reason alone, I consider it pure joy that I am able to face this trial.
My challenge to you is to think back to some of your diligent prayers. How has the Lord answered them? was it in a way that you expected or even accepted? I can't wait to hear of His work in you.
And a few snow pictures because that's what everyone in this area is posting about :)
This is the drive into our neighborhood
Wally, aka the cutest St. Bernard in all of the land
Brian and all 4 of his doggies. Doesn't he look like that kid from A Christmas Story?
Our neighborhood gate
And, just so that I can drag this post out a bit more, I wanted to give you an update about the radiation issue that I posted about last week. My team of doctors decided that the best solution is for me to have surgery to switch out my implants. I agree that this seems to be the best decision, but I am NOT looking forward to another surgery. I am not sure when this will take place. But, once it does, I will have to heal for 3 MORE weeks before starting radiation. Though this seems frustrating to me, I know that the Lord has purpose in it. So, again, I will consider it pure joy.
I would appreciate your prayers for a speedy surgery date and an easy surgery with a quick recovery. As you can imagine, I feel ready to get the show on the road.
Thank you for your specific prayers.
I love you all!
EDIT: Because God is awesome and His timing is perfect, I wanted to let you know that my surgeon's office called first thing this morning, and told me that my surgery is scheduled for this Thursday. Praise God with me for a speedy surgery date!