Monday, February 8, 2010
Good evening, my precious friends! I'm greeting you tonight from the end of a very long, dreary day. I don't know about you, but I've about had enough of this winter weather. I can't wait for the hot days of summer when I break a sweat walking to my car. I love the constant warmth!
Today was uneventful. It was a very typical day in the classroom. My little class has been so flexible in the past couple of months. They just seem to go with the flow, without too much concern for the lack of normalcy. This sort of thing is hard on kids, and I realize that. At times, it breaks my heart that I can't do anything to fix it. Isn't that what we all want to do? Fix it?
In so many ways, I'm glad that we can't. Sure, it would be nice to be able to pop a pill and know that the act would fix it, but we can't. I have grown to love the fact that we MUST rely on God in every single situation. I feel like I'm a very controlling person, but it's really only to the extent that the Lord allows it. God is sovereign. He has full reign over my life - and yours. It's a beautiful thing to know that this is absolutely not my burden to bear.
Anyway, that's where my head is tonight - praising God for His supreme authority.
Tomorrow, is a big day on the cancer circuit. At 9:30 tomorrow morning, I have an appointment to undergo radiation simulation. This is when they do some scans, mark me, and walk me through the process. Then, I'll start the real deal on Wednesday. I will have 30 rounds of radiation, which will endure every weekday for 6 weeks.
I'd be a liar if I said I was looking forward to this. But, I am looking forward to starting it. The sooner I start, the sooner I finish.
I don't know how to put this next part delicately, but I'll do my best. It's not a secret that I've had breast reconstruction with implants. Well, as you can imagine, reconstructed breasts and radiation don't mix all that well. This is a major concern for me. Well, that and lymphedema (painful swelling of my arm). Can I ask you to pray that God would protect my skin and reconstruction from the radiation? I must be genuine and say that while I try my best to take all of this like a champ, I am STILL a 26-year-old newlywed who would like to have a nice cosmetic result.
I am praying that Jehovah Rophi, my God who heals, would perfectly point the radiation beams to completely destroy any cancer cells that are still lurking in my body. I am praying that He protects all healthy cells from radiation damage, so that they are able to keep functioning as normal, so that I might be free of all adverse side effects. I am praying that He would use my time as I wait on radiation and receive radiation for His glory, that my mind might be set on things above, not on earthly things. Can you pray these things with me? Please.
And, just one more thing before I close tonight. I don't know if you guys are aware, but tomorrow I will have been on my chemo pills and estrogen blocker for one week. I was warned of some major nasty side effects of these drugs, and thus far, I feel wonderful. That's because of the Lord, folks. Only because of Him.
Posted by Pleasant Living at 7:19 PM