She told me that she has been working with a physicist to create the radiation fields that they will be using for my treatments. She started the conversation with, "This never happens...." As you know, for me, it doesn't matter if it "never happens". It somehow manages to happen.
Basically, they are having problems because of my implants. I'm not trying to be crass or overly personal, but because of the size and closeness of my implants, the radiation field that hits my chest wall isn't hitting correctly.
So, we are looking at 2 possibilities, neither one is ideal.
1.) Replace the implants with smaller ones so that the my chest wall can be reached. This would mean more surgery/recovery before starting.
2.) Leave my chest wall out of the radiation field, and just radiate my armpit and clavicle area. This means that there would be greater chance of recurrence on my chest wall. Chest wall recurrences are not life threatening, but hey, a recurrence is a recurrence.
When we hung up, the doctor was going to call my plastic surgeon and see if switching out my implants is even a possibility. I don't know if it is, or not. So, she is supposed to let me know something once they've figured out a solution. She did tell me not to come on Monday, unless I hear back from her. She said this is going to take some time to decipher because she's never seen it before.
So, there you have it.
Even in this, I bless His name. I give Him honor. I give Him praise. I know that He has ordained every step of this. I know that He is in control. And, our faith will not be shaken. If it means more surgery, so be it. I'm tough. I can handle another surgery. If it means, that we can't radiate my chest wall, then that is not news to the Lord, and it changes nothing about my life, health, or future. Those things are secure in His hands.
Please pray with us through this.
Love you all. Each one.
15 comments:
Geez, this must be frustrating. It does sound like you have a good team working for you, and I have confidence they'll figure out the best path from here. Praying for you, girl.
..."then that is not news to the Lord, and it changes nothing about my life, health, or future."
I love that sentence. We get so caught up in thinking that if this or that doesn't happen, our lives will spire out of control. But whether it's bad or good news to us, it's not news to God, like to said! He's got a plan for us no matter what!
Praying for you!
praying for you, you can get through this..
Every bad, every good, every praise, every request. You are tough, you will beat this! Praying more and more for you
Tressa
Amen!
All timing is Divine - what we may think of as a set-back, or problem, is always in perfect accord with The Higher Ups.
Remember to breathe!
In prayer,
Barbara
Oh my word. Praying over it.
There are no glitches with God! Such a comfort to know.
MY DEAR LINDSEY! GOD HAS HIS HAND ON YOU! GOD IS GOOD! HE NEVER FAILS! MANY PRAYERS ARE GOING UP FOR YOU FROM THE MEMBERS OF FIRST BAPTIST CHURCH IN MIDLAND. SO MANY PEOPLE HERE ASK ABOUT YOU. GOD ANSWERS PRAYER! I LOVE YOU!
Amen,Amen,Amen to God being in control of all aspects of the situation.
Praying,
Carol
Ditto on Grandma Ruth's comments. Our entire Sunday School class is praying for you!! Wow-I don't know what to say-the verse that is coming to mind is "Be still and know that I AM GOD."
Thanks for sharing your heart, soul, the nitty gritty details....it helps us all know what is going on---that you ARE human, and relying fully on God's strength!! Love, Amy
Isn't it good to rest in His arms? I read this today and want to share it with you:
"When it seems to me that bad things are happening to me I will not turn from God nor ask God why, but seek to know the good that God is trying to teach me through the hard and testing times that I am going through."
Praying for you.
I just had a thought about the femara that I thought I would share with you. My doctor recommended that I take it at night since it can cause nausea and so that is what I have been doing. I don't know when you are taking it, but you could maybe try that. I hope that the joint pain will resolve for you, he also told me that it can sometimes go away. Praying for you. You may have plenty of support from fellow young survivors, and I know that I can't completely understand all that you are facing, but I was diagnosed at 29 and am 3 years out at this point and am praying for you. my email is mbderby AT yahoo DOT com, if you would like anymore information.
One step forward, two steps back! At least it sure seems that way sometimes. I know how it is to sometimes have a hard time enjoying good news, because you are always wondering what bad news will follow.
However, remember that this is just a glitch that you will get past. We'll all be praying and have hope for you as well! Huge hugs to you as you continue down the road in this journey.
Continuing to pray for you on a daily basis. May the peace of Jesus Christ be on you and your husband.
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