Over the holidays, one of our family members asked me about our "5 year plan". You know, this is the blueprint by which all newly married couples are supposed to pattern and plan their decisions and actions according to an overall goal. In theory, this seems like a decent idea. I'm not, at all, opposed to dreams and aspirations. On the contrary, I find it necessary to have lofty ambitions.
But, in the last couple of years, I have realized that we can over plan our lives to the point that we limit the Lord. We crush our availability in favor of our 5 Year Plan.
Now, I can see that those words in Isaiah ring so true for us. I do not understand why the Lord is guiding us through one trial after another. It doesn't seem fair, and it can be angering at times. But, what I know, more than anything else is that God's thoughts and ways are not my thoughts and ways. I know, beyond the shadow of a doubt, that this process is for HIS glory. And, I stand joyful as he leads us through it.
This isn't always easy, but it is the journey that God has laid out for us. So, in light of all of those things, I can't wait for 2010 to get underway. I didn't expect to have a year like we are destined to have. I didn't desire it, and I still don't. But, I accept it. I accept the Lord's challenge to get to know him in an even more intimate way. I can't wait to peel back even more layers of the character of Christ. I am ecstatic about falling in love with my husband to an even deeper degree. I am excited to see what the Lord has in store for us. I believe with my whole heart, that this is so much greater than a medical challenge. This is about the Lord, and His work in us.