Friday, January 22, 2010

My Week: A Recap

This week, I've been eating a whole lot of this:

And doing a whole lot of this:

Seriously, this week has been a very restful one, as I have tried my best to stay idle and simply focus on getting well and resting. I'm not a rester. Well, I didn't used to be a rester, but I'm thinking of taking it up as a hobby. Brian is forever telling me, "Just SIT. You don't have to constantly be doing something. Just rest." So, I'm trying my best to take his advice, and that of countless others, and simply rest my way to health. It does seem like something I could get used to :)

Ya'll, I had an unusual morning. Actually, for a cancer patient, it was very usual, but for your average Joe, it was a bit unique. Since Brian has been my constant companion, my dad and stepmom accompanied me to my appointment with my oncologist, and I'm very glad that they did. I think at one point, I turned to Carol (stepmom) and said, "I'm just going to stop going to the doctor altogether. They always give me bad news."

Basically, the 50+ doctors that have been working on my case have not been able to come up with a positive solution to the cancer that seems to love my body. From lots of tests and research, we have found that I have many genetic mutations, and this makes my cancer very aggressive and resistant to treatment. Yes, even the treatment that I just finished up in November. This is not new information to me. I already knew that it was aggressive and that obviously it resists treatment since it showed up immediately following treatment.

Medically speaking, this is not good. In fact, this is quite bad, and the doctors have even been frank with me about that.

But, I am going to borrow words from my dear friend, Kristin, who has reminded me several times, "It's a good thing God doesn't care about what's medically good or not good."

And, she's right. He doesn't care. This prognosis of "not good" changes absolutely nothing about me or my life or my time on earth. Those days are set, and my future is secure because of the Lord.

What it does change is how powerful the Lord will prove to be. It changes how magnificently He shows himself to us. It changes how much I am able to make of Him because of what He has done for me.

So, rest assured that we are not fearful. It's the strangest thing, and beyond comprehension, which is how we know that it's through God's provision. We are praising God for health today, for wonderful opportunities to tell others about Him, and for loving us so much to trust us with this lesson of faith.


16 comments:

Anonymous said...

You are such a strong person...keep smiling and your faith will carry you through whatever lies ahead.

I have written several times before and said this but please know your story, your faith and how you live your life as we know from your blog are all an inspiration to me here in the Midwest.

I will continue to pray for healing for you and for strength for all of you. Keep up the fight and we wil continue to check in our your blog happenings....I still can't get over how awesome your home decorating ideas are....if you decide not to be teacher, you should be an interior designer.

God Bless.....

Katie said...

Your words are powerful and true. God is working through you in amazing ways. Thank you for sharing!!

Cari said...

Sounds like you are experiencing a "peace that passes all understanding". Praise Him for comforting you on days like today.

one of nettie's girls said...

I can't read your posts without tears. I am so blown away by your faith and how you allow us the privilege of watching it grow every day. It overwhelms me. Praying every day for you.

Whitney said...

Oh Lindsey. I hate this cancer and I hate that it thrives in your body. But I'm so thankful that He is bigger than this. What would we do without the Almighty? Praying.....all the time.

Leslie said...

Bless you sweet friend!!! I hate this news today, but love that God works best when man comes to a wall! His ways are not our ways and I am continually praying that God will heal you! We can't see the future and what an encouragement and great reminder to me you are that we just have to be obedient and trust God DAILY on each sep until He reveals the next part of the journey! Thank you for being obedient in your trusting in him...I am so thankful He is keeping you in perfect peace...obviously because your mind is steadfast on Him...Blessings

Romi said...
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Romi said...

You have the Grace of God on your side. As I have said before your faith moves me and I am blessed to be able to read your testaments of faith in God on your blog. Praying for you.

Paula said...

Brian & Lindsey,
You are experienceing the peace that everyone has been praying for when you are able to rest without fretting on what to do next.
I am sorry to hear the news and will pray specifically for a treatment for this cancer that seems to loves your body. God's will, will prevail. His strength is perfect when our strength is gone. Don't give up on your doctors. They are just looking for what is best for you.
All our love, The Chaffin's

Julie Adams said...

I'm so lost about this and I don't understand. What is the bad news from the doctors really meaning? That no treatment will work? But, it worked before? I'm just confused. Everything I've done the past week when I seem to lose my trust or footing with God I keep you in mind. You have such strong faith in the fire that you help make us realize the little things don't bother us so much. I know you understand the impact you are making on others, but I hope you realize that you are truly on our minds and in our prayers much more than you REALLY realize... you touch my life every single day right now... Now... GO LAUGH because that's the best medicine.

Alabamamom said...

I know that I've never met you in person but it's such a blessing how the body of Christ is one big family. The Lord has used you to motivate me to keep on keeping on no matter what the situation. God is in control. My husband and I are praying for your complete healing with no sign of cancer left in your body. He is faithful.
Love,
Carol

Chels said...

One of my favorite hymns when thinking about being still before God is: "Be Still My Soul." You can find the lyrics at:

We are praying for you!
Chelsea Pillsbury Collins

Chels said...

Okay, just posted, and the link didn't show up. Anyway, just copy and paste this: http://www.igracemusic.com/hymnbook/hymns/b01.html

Sorry!

Anonymous said...

Keep on fighting the good fight of faith-He is actually fighting for you, keep on believing-with men this is impossible but with God ALL things are possible, keep on seeking God-His peace will overtake you, He will guide you and counsel you in your decisions, Keep on hoping-He is using you as a vessel to reach others, keep on loving your husband-He's a special gift and Keep on writing-this is your testimony to be shared. Praying for you this morning from Birmingham, AL! And if it makes you feel any better, I am doing the veggies, fruit too but I have been surprised at how much better I feel eating that way. God will show you all kinds of ways to be more like HIm in the process. His likeness is our goal. So shake on my sister, and remember Jeremiah 29:11! Love, Suzanne Moore

Di said...

Oh my friend I just love your spirit. I really want to hate that all of this is happening to you! You are such a special person and I hate that you have to go through all these trials, but I understand that God is so in control, and it is HIS plan, and He is using you. Girl, you are pleasing Him and spreadng His love everytime you post on here and I am sure talk about this and just live your life. Please know I'm praying for you and enlisting prayers of from everyone I know here in south TX and everywhere else.

casey said...

Your faith and strength through God are awesome, the comments you have made remind me of those I've read in Darlene Bishops Your life follows your words. Your expecting healing and you will get it, Really good book if you like to read. I met you at our church in Colo. after your first sergery, We will keep you in our PRAYERS daily, We are so blessed to serve a God that is bigger than everything that is thrown our way. God Bless you both. Casey