This week, I've been eating a whole lot of this:
And doing a whole lot of this:
Seriously, this week has been a very restful one, as I have tried my best to stay idle and simply focus on getting well and resting. I'm not a rester. Well, I didn't used to be a rester, but I'm thinking of taking it up as a hobby. Brian is forever telling me, "Just SIT. You don't have to constantly be doing something. Just rest." So, I'm trying my best to take his advice, and that of countless others, and simply rest my way to health. It does seem like something I could get used to :)
Ya'll, I had an unusual morning. Actually, for a cancer patient, it was very usual, but for your average Joe, it was a bit unique. Since Brian has been my constant companion, my dad and stepmom accompanied me to my appointment with my oncologist, and I'm very glad that they did. I think at one point, I turned to Carol (stepmom) and said, "I'm just going to stop going to the doctor altogether. They always give me bad news."
Basically, the 50+ doctors that have been working on my case have not been able to come up with a positive solution to the cancer that seems to love my body. From lots of tests and research, we have found that I have many genetic mutations, and this makes my cancer very aggressive and resistant to treatment. Yes, even the treatment that I just finished up in November. This is not new information to me. I already knew that it was aggressive and that obviously it resists treatment since it showed up immediately following treatment.
Medically speaking, this is not good. In fact, this is quite bad, and the doctors have even been frank with me about that.
But, I am going to borrow words from my dear friend, Kristin, who has reminded me several times, "It's a good thing God doesn't care about what's medically good or not good."
And, she's right. He doesn't care. This prognosis of "not good" changes absolutely nothing about me or my life or my time on earth. Those days are set, and my future is secure because of the Lord.
What it does change is how powerful the Lord will prove to be. It changes how magnificently He shows himself to us. It changes how much I am able to make of Him because of what He has done for me.
So, rest assured that we are not fearful. It's the strangest thing, and beyond comprehension, which is how we know that it's through God's provision. We are praising God for health today, for wonderful opportunities to tell others about Him, and for loving us so much to trust us with this lesson of faith.