God is good! The surgery was easy and flawless, and I am well on my way to recovery. I'm still moving rather slowly, but I can tell that this isn't going to put me down for long.
I must tell you guys about my experience yesterday morning. Ya'll, between me and you, it was a rough morning. I got up early to spend some time pouring my heart out to God, and instead my time was taken by cleaning up a messy dog crate after a sick puppy had spent the night in it. ICK!
On mornings like that, when the dogs create messes, I totally lose it. I hate that about me. This is a character flaw that I'm desperately trying to change.
More than anything, I needed time in the Word. For me, this surgery brought on a lot of anxiety. It wasn't so much the loss of fertility, because I feel the Lord has already transformed my mind in this matter, but it was the unknown about the side effects of this surgery. I knew it wasn't just going to heal up and I'd be the same old Lindsey that I've always been. I knew that I'd be forever changed. That was hard for me to bite off.
I literally sobbed the whole way to the hospital. Poor Brian was at a total loss, because I was beyond help. See, this is why I was getting up early to make sure I had time with the Lord to work this out before I had to work it out with people. It was a burden between me and the Lord, not me and the world.
At last, we pulled into the parking garage and Brian helped me to dry it up by putting the situation in a humorous light. He's quite gifted in this respect. Brian can make me laugh at the most serious subjects. Some people even deem it insensitive or inappropriate, but it's a coping mechanism for us. And, it works.
So, by the time I went in, the Lord had worked it out just right so that things were actually running AHEAD of schedule. How often does that happen at the hospital? I know this was for me. I didn't need any downtime in the pre-op room before surgery began. An idle mind would not have been a positive thing in this situation.
Now that it's all over and done with, my heart is at rest. I'm glad to be home. I'm glad to be prayed for. It changes things. It has changed me.