Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Home again. Home again.

God is good! The surgery was easy and flawless, and I am well on my way to recovery. I'm still moving rather slowly, but I can tell that this isn't going to put me down for long.

I must tell you guys about my experience yesterday morning. Ya'll, between me and you, it was a rough morning. I got up early to spend some time pouring my heart out to God, and instead my time was taken by cleaning up a messy dog crate after a sick puppy had spent the night in it. ICK!

On mornings like that, when the dogs create messes, I totally lose it. I hate that about me. This is a character flaw that I'm desperately trying to change.

More than anything, I needed time in the Word. For me, this surgery brought on a lot of anxiety. It wasn't so much the loss of fertility, because I feel the Lord has already transformed my mind in this matter, but it was the unknown about the side effects of this surgery. I knew it wasn't just going to heal up and I'd be the same old Lindsey that I've always been. I knew that I'd be forever changed. That was hard for me to bite off.

I literally sobbed the whole way to the hospital. Poor Brian was at a total loss, because I was beyond help. See, this is why I was getting up early to make sure I had time with the Lord to work this out before I had to work it out with people. It was a burden between me and the Lord, not me and the world.

At last, we pulled into the parking garage and Brian helped me to dry it up by putting the situation in a humorous light. He's quite gifted in this respect. Brian can make me laugh at the most serious subjects. Some people even deem it insensitive or inappropriate, but it's a coping mechanism for us. And, it works.

So, by the time I went in, the Lord had worked it out just right so that things were actually running AHEAD of schedule. How often does that happen at the hospital? I know this was for me. I didn't need any downtime in the pre-op room before surgery began. An idle mind would not have been a positive thing in this situation.

Now that it's all over and done with, my heart is at rest. I'm glad to be home. I'm glad to be prayed for. It changes things. It has changed me.

27 comments:

A Nerd and A Free Spirit said...

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~Kathryn

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Glad you feeling well. God Bless

Dana said...

Thanks for the speedy update! I was thinking about you and praying for you all day yesterday. I can't imagine how many tears would be shed if I were in your shoes- I've already cried for you several times and I don't even know you! Oh, and my husband Ryan does the same thing to me too- inappropriate humor can make things so much better sometimes!

~*Katie*~ said...

Glad to hear that it went well and you are doing well...

Thanks for updating to let us all know...

Praying for a speedy recovery for you!!!

Kristina said...

So glad to hear that it went smoothly. Praying, praying, praying! You'll be up cleaning and painting in no time. :)

wfinke said...

Praising God that your surgery went smoothly and that the OR was ahead of schedule (I don't think I've ever seen that, definitely a God thing). Will continue to pray for you as you recover and adjust to the side effects of menopause.

Shelly said...

Glad you are home and resting. Continuing to pray for you!

Leslie said...

Yesterday as I worked on my BSF lesson on John 11, one of the questions was "What does it mean to glorify God in the midst of sickness, suffering, or tragedy?" And the first thing to come to my mind was "Lindsey." Not because you are a super-hero, but because you consistently point to God in the midst of your weakness. (And I think puppy puke gets the best of all of us! ;)

Anonymous said...

Praise god for transofrmed minds, good husbands and easy surgery!
Praying for healing and health.

Lindsey said...

So glad to hear it went well!

Anonymous said...

Do not worry and do not be afraid of how you will change from this surgery. As long as you continue to cling to the Lord, you will not wither away but you will bloom in the sunshine of God's grace. Be still before our Father and rest in His perfect love.

Allison said...

Praise our Almighty Healer!! :)

Jana said...

A marriage without inappropriate humor is a mere sham! :)

Praying for you, sweet girl.

one of nettie's girls said...

Humor is just one more gracious gift from the Father. So glad to hear that things went smoothly, and even were ahead of schedule. Praying for a seamless recovery.

Tanya said...

Humor is a wonderful medicine. I'm so glad it went well!

k_stin said...

Yea! I'm so glad you made it through surgery and that you think you will recover quickly from this one. I know it was difficult, and will pray for you about the side effects of this surgery.

Leslie said...

So glad the surgery went so well! I would have to say, I would cry after dog puke too!!! Maybe the Lord knew you needed something to get all those tearful emotions out! I don't think he ever wastes anything...even dog puke! Love you and praying!!!

Ruth - Grandma said...

I am so glad your surgery went so well and that you are at home again. I know you will be up and going again in a few days. Brian was doing the thing he does so well and that is to make people laugh. I love his humor. It is a real joy to be with him. He takes such good care of you! I praise God for you and Brian and your Christian home. I love you.

Erin said...

Thanks for keeping us posted. And it sounds like you and your hubby are a good team. Seriously good team.

Garrett and Meagan said...

I'm the same way with Dog mess. I don't know how you are getting through all this! you are doing awesome!!! 1

Alexia said...

Lindsey, you probably know I stalk your blog, hungry for news. You are almost constantly on my mind, and I feel incredibly blessed that God is growing me through your situations. You, my friend, are simply amazing!

Alabamamom said...

Praise the Lord for a smooth and speedy surgery. Praying for your continued healing and that the nasty cancer will be gone from your body.

Anonymous said...

Lindsey, I too thought of you as I was studying John 11 as you glorify and praise God for what He is doing for you in the midst of your illness. Praying for you daily. Thank you for updates and specific prayer needs.

Paula said...

Brian and Lindsey,
Your faith never ceases to amaze me. I am so glad that you let someone serve you before your surgery, I'm sure you both needed a little down time in order to get mentally and physically ready. We are certainly praying for Mountains to be moved and for God to be glorified even more that He already has. You two will come out of this with an awesome testimony. We pray without ceasiing. The Chaffin's

Michele said...

Good morning Lindsey ~ I've been praying for you and am so glad you updated us. And also so very thankful everything (but the puppy!) went smoothly.

Big hugz...and still prayin!
Michele

Whitney said...

I love that you have Brian.

Amy said...

Brian has a great way about turning things around in his own funny, little humorous way!! God has blessed you with him, to be on this journey together. Know that Charlie and I pray for you daily-throughout our days. Love, Amy