Friday, December 18, 2009

Green Pastures.

Truly, I CANNOT even begin to express the love that I have for each one of you - those I know personally, and those that I don't. You all have blessed my very soul and touched my heart in such a magnificently significant way through your inspiring words of encouragement. I feel covered in prayer and deeply loved. Thank you.

Today has been a wonderful day. Brian and I slept until my phone's ringing woke us up at 8:30. We needed the rest after the emotionally draining day yesterday. All morning, we just did a few chores around the house and enjoyed being in our haven. That is definitely what it is for us. I spent hours on the phone today, and yesterday, but it was nice to be home with the crew.

I can't say that I didn't have moments of utter panic. "What if the cancer's everywhere? What if this is it? What am I going to do about treatment? What if...." You name it, my mind went there. But most of the day, I just had an ongoing dialogue with the Lord. I just kept hearing over and over and over, "Lindsey, this is for my glory. This is bigger than you." So, those moments brought me reassurance and allowed me to shut out Satan's attempts to steal, kill, and destroy me.

Psalm 23 played over and over in my mind.
"The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, [a] I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever."
Then, this evening, I got the absolute best news of the day - my cat scan showed a localized tumor! Please pray that the bone scan and PET scan will confirm these results.
So, today was a good one. I received good news. And, I just love the closeness to the Lord that trials bring. I thought numerous times today that I just wish that I would always live my life like I do through trials. They bring such sweetness with the Lord and loved ones. They make me only look at the big picture and drop the petty annoyances that are so unimportant.
To God be the glory GREAT things He has done!


podso said...

Such good news to cling to. But even more, the wonderful perspective your heavenly Father has given you! Hang in there.

Katie said...

AMEN!!! That is amazing news!! Reading through Psalm 23 made me cry (okay, I cry pretty much every time I read your blog!). What a healing, nurturing, beautiful passage of God's comfort. Your words that this is for HIS glory are so true.

You're just awesome.

Leslie said...

So thankful...and joyful for your news. I will continue to be praying for you. I went back last night and read your archives and wow...what a testimony you have. I can't wait to see how God is going to use this in your life for HIS glory!

one of nettie's girls said...

Wonderful, wonderful good news. I have heard so many testimonies in my life from people who were broken and bent down who said that they were so close to God at those times. What a sweetness to have fellowship with Him in suffering. Praying daily for you and Brian.

Meagan said...

I love your strength and your positive outlook. Amazing!

Whitney said...

Perfect news to hear this day!!! Praise God. Praise God. PRAISE GOD! Continuing to pray as always.

And I l-o-v-e your new header!!

k_stin said...

I love how God whispered those words of encouragement to you. (Reading about it brought tears to my eyes.) I'll be praying that he continues to be your strength and that Satan WILL be held at bay.
I am thankful for your good news and hope that it gets even better.

Anonymous said...

May you feel peace beyond understanding. I don't know how I came across your blog but read it often.I am a Christian so will have you and your Family in my prayers. May all of you be blessed and feel total peace.

Erin said...

Finding grace and peace through the storm. So proud of you. Praying.

Unknown said...

you and brian have my prayers. praying for you guys as you make the next steps. thank you for giving God ALL the glory. I'm honored to have you as a blogging friend.

UL Cards Fan said...

I just read your comment to Beth on the LPM blog and wanted to know I am praying for you. Beth's "Grace and Mercy" prove once again that God is in the details. May you be comforted by our great God in heaven.

Linda Peel

mckenziegordon said...

This morning our Pastor preached on declaring the glory of God and you were on my heart the whole time. Just how gracefully you're doing that through your storm. Continue to point others to Him and deliverance WILL come because He is FAITHFUL!!!

Sweet Simplicity said...

You are such a great example of the kind of faith that we should have, just like Abraham. I am praying for you and for Brian.