Truly, I CANNOT even begin to express the love that I have for each one of you - those I know personally, and those that I don't. You all have blessed my very soul and touched my heart in such a magnificently significant way through your inspiring words of encouragement. I feel covered in prayer and deeply loved. Thank you.
Today has been a wonderful day. Brian and I slept until my phone's ringing woke us up at 8:30. We needed the rest after the emotionally draining day yesterday. All morning, we just did a few chores around the house and enjoyed being in our haven. That is definitely what it is for us. I spent hours on the phone today, and yesterday, but it was nice to be home with the crew.
I can't say that I didn't have moments of utter panic. "What if the cancer's everywhere? What if this is it? What am I going to do about treatment? What if...." You name it, my mind went there. But most of the day, I just had an ongoing dialogue with the Lord. I just kept hearing over and over and over, "Lindsey, this is for my glory. This is bigger than you." So, those moments brought me reassurance and allowed me to shut out Satan's attempts to steal, kill, and destroy me.
Psalm 23 played over and over in my mind.
"The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, [a] I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever."
Then, this evening, I got the absolute best news of the day - my cat scan showed a localized tumor! Please pray that the bone scan and PET scan will confirm these results.
So, today was a good one. I received good news. And, I just love the closeness to the Lord that trials bring. I thought numerous times today that I just wish that I would always live my life like I do through trials. They bring such sweetness with the Lord and loved ones. They make me only look at the big picture and drop the petty annoyances that are so unimportant.
To God be the glory GREAT things He has done!