or a month or a few months. Today I went for a MUGA scan. This is a test that takes a movie-like picture of your heart. It tests the pumping function of the heart. You see, chemo and Herceptin are extremely hard on one's heart, so the doctors like to check and make sure that everything is working correctly as their patients undergo treatment. I'll be required to have a MUGA every 3 months until Herceptin is complete.
For this test, the patient has blood drawn. They tag the blood with radioactive markers; then, reinject the tagged blood. At this point, the patient is hooked up to electrodes and placed on a scanning table for a period of imaging. It's about an hour long process.
No, my intent is not to bore you with medical terminology today. As I layed there still and silent, I began thinking about my first MUGA (pre-surgery, pre-chemo). I remembered feeling terrified throughout that scan. "Are they going to find more bad news?" I wondered. "Am I going to be a good candidate for chemo and Herceptin?" All of these anxieties plagued me.
Today, I was overwhelmed with peace. As I was halfway through with my internal conversation - "Hmm. I wonder what I'll eat for lunch today. What style of dress should I get for Easter." - I realized the total and complete difference in my mindsets. Today, I was carefree and filled with joy.
Only because of the Lord, folks. Only because of the Lord.