Thursday, March 12, 2009

What a Difference a Day Makes...

or a month or a few months. Today I went for a MUGA scan. This is a test that takes a movie-like picture of your heart. It tests the pumping function of the heart. You see, chemo and Herceptin are extremely hard on one's heart, so the doctors like to check and make sure that everything is working correctly as their patients undergo treatment. I'll be required to have a MUGA every 3 months until Herceptin is complete.

For this test, the patient has blood drawn. They tag the blood with radioactive markers; then, reinject the tagged blood. At this point, the patient is hooked up to electrodes and placed on a scanning table for a period of imaging. It's about an hour long process.

No, my intent is not to bore you with medical terminology today. As I layed there still and silent, I began thinking about my first MUGA (pre-surgery, pre-chemo). I remembered feeling terrified throughout that scan. "Are they going to find more bad news?" I wondered. "Am I going to be a good candidate for chemo and Herceptin?" All of these anxieties plagued me.

Today, I was overwhelmed with peace. As I was halfway through with my internal conversation - "Hmm. I wonder what I'll eat for lunch today. What style of dress should I get for Easter." - I realized the total and complete difference in my mindsets. Today, I was carefree and filled with joy.

Only because of the Lord, folks. Only because of the Lord.

5 comments:

Jana said...

"Overwhelmed with peace." What a perfect phrase.

Megan said...

Yes..praise God for all that he has helped you through! So amazing.

Lindsey said...

Praise God for sure! This was an amazing post.

Sweet Simplicity said...

That is amazing! What a great feeling--peace.

The Pink Potpourri said...

oh what a blessing. God is so good. at my women's bible study this morning we were talking about mary and martha and how we as women can be too worrisome, instead of handing our worries and fears over to the Lord. its easier said than done sometimes! what a blessing that you had no worries at all this time!