Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Feeling tired, lonely, and cheated?

Good Morning, Faithful Readers,
It's 7:45 and I just settled in to the couch with a cup of strong coffee and my Bible in tow. I sent my wonderful husband off to work with a smile and a kiss, and I knew that the next task of the day had to be time with the Lord.

Today, I'm going to be honest. Brutally truthful. Self-exposing. For the past couple of days, I have really put Brian to the test as I let my emotions rule my mood. One minute, I've been happy as a lark. Then, in the very next second, I would allow a total paradigm shift as I indulged the wrongful thoughts that Satan put in my head to steal, kill, and destroy my joy. I was constantly ridiculing Brian for not writing my name in the sky and failing to pen elaborate love letters to the one he holds dear - ME! Ridiculous? I think so. You see, it wasn't until late evening yesterday that I said, "Brian, I know why I'm acting like this!" I'm sure that he was worried that I was going to go into another 30 minute dissertation about how he could better meet my "needs". But then, God just revealed it to me, "I haven't been spending enough time with the Lord," I said. Life had gotten in the way of my quality time with my Jesus. I hadn't sat down and really taken in His truths and presence in almost a week. Sure, I could sit here and say, "Well, I was busy with Brian's birthday. We were out of town. I still read the Bible and prayed with Brian." And on, and on, and on. But, the truth of the matter is, when I'm not using Jesus to "fill me up", then it all falls on my husband. He can try with all his might to make me happy, but he can't do it, not matter how hard he tries.

Ladies, we have a lot on our plates - jobs, cooking, cleaning, social organizing, etc, etc. But, time with God is a non-negotiable. It's a necessity if we are going to successfully combat Satan's mental/emotional attacks on us. Let's spare our husbands from trying to run a race that they can't possibly win. Let's find our joy in the Lord, so that we are free to love our men with full tanks!

10 comments:

Glamorous Life of a House Wife said...

I know this all too well, my friend. There have been many a time when I KNOW I'm being flat out ridiculous, but I just can't help it. ;) Great post!

Cari said...

I am with you 100%!! I had a few of those ridiculous, take everything out on Brandon moments this weekend and it was coming from absolutely nowhere!! Thanks for the encouragement!

Amy said...

I've been there with you, sweet lady.

I'm sending you (((BIG HUGS!)))

In Christ,
Amy:)

katie beth said...

Oh this happens to me! And bless my husbands heart when it does.

How easy it is to try and trust our husbands because they are present, but how unfair to them and to our God.

I needed this reminder today. Thank you for the encouragement and challenge!

Lindsey said...

I couldn't agree with you more!!!

one of nettie's girls said...

Wonderful post. I find the more time I spend with God the more time I want to spend with Him.

podso said...

Wise comments, good post, but do give yourself a little slack. Remember that the chemo can affect you some too; you have been through a ton in your first year of marriage. Not that God can't overcome all that, and He can and will, but ...be patient with yourself too.

Sweet Simplicity said...

Great post! I do this to Ty way too often.

the undomesticated wife said...

This has been me lately. Then I feel worse, because I open up my Bible and can't figure out what I should be studying at that moment. Or I pray and feel like I'm whining too much. I think I'm in a rut. Wish it was easy to snap out of!

Mrs. Cup said...

I really needed to hear this....thank you!