Friday, January 9, 2009

Seriously.

"If I go to sleep now, I can still sleep for 4 hours before I get up. . . Okay, now if I go to sleep, I'll have 3 1/2 hours left before my alarm goes off." The frustrating thoughts continually ran through my brain as I watched the minutes tick away. I tossed. I turned. I covered up. I uncovered. I coughed. I stretched out. I balled up. I breathed deeply. I exhaled slowly. Nothing seemed to quiet my mind and soothe me into slumber.

"Just forget it!" I argued with my body. "Get up. It doesn't matter that you don't even have to work today, or that you have a busy day ahead. Kiss those extra hours of sleep goodbye and get up."

I unplugged my cell phone from the charger and quietly tip-toed across our bedroom to make my quick escape, so as not to disturb my resting husband who did have to report to work. Unfortunately, I wasn't silent enough. I woke him. I quickly explained my dilemma and exited the room.

After spending well over an hour just laying in the bed, pondering life and all of its ins and outs, I had a deep desire to sit with my Lord for a while. I felt him drawing me to Him. Do you know what I mean? When you just have this insatiable thirst to be with God?

Thursday had been a big day in our relationship, the one between God and me. He had shown His perfect, dad-like care for me in a real, authentic tangible way, and I was deeply moved by His generosity.

You see, medical expenses have been an enormous worry for me. Not that I doubted that the Lord would provide, but just that Brian and I would have this burdensome debt to overcome. I didn't want that to plague our financial future. We've had countless bills pouring in throughout the past several months, and I've just been filing them and reconciling them with insurance statements. Well, yesterday two more bills greeted me as I collected my mail. I thought, "Okay, I need to sit down and figure out exactly how much we owe. " As I reviewed each invoice and followed up with each provider, I found that we are responsible for very little. Can you imagine what an enormous weight this took from my shoulders? Here I am, a young newlywedded woman, thinking, "Oh my gosh! What are we going to do? I'm having 2 major surgeries and hospital stays, 6 rounds of chemo, 52 Herceptin treatments, cat scans, MRIs, bone scans, heart scans, ultrasounds, mammograms, biopsies, and numerous blood tests, injections, and prescriptions coming my way within a one year period." My head was spinning when I learned that 100% of most of these things would be covered by my insurance benefits. And, the hospital is actually sending me a check because I overpaid. Folks, God is good!

So, I'm once again thankful. I'm thankful that God woke me up with a hunger to praise Him today. I'm thankful that He, through the provision of insurance, took care of ALL of my needs.

18 comments:

Amy said...

That is wonderful news! I am so happy for you!

And thank you for sharing this today....My soul desperately needed the encouragement.

I just saw Jeremiah 29:11 on Whitney's blog....God is SO good. That is a verse that God gave my husband and me regarding my husband's job.....and we are clinging to it during these tough financial times.

Anyway, today, God has used both of you to encourage me! Thank you for your faithfulness to share.
You are a blessing!

In Christ,
Amy:)

the undomesticated wife said...

You're such an inspiration to me. Your attitude is always so positive and you always seem to be looking in the right direction. I wish I could be more like you. Unfortunately, I'm a "glass is half empty" kind of girl. I'd like to be different.

Do you happen to have certain scriptures or books that you like to read when you are feeling that need? If so, would you share them?

I'm so happy to hear that the insurance in covering quite a lot for you!

Glamorous Life of a House Wife said...

Wow. Lindsey, that is incredible. God never ceases to amaze me with his provision. Astounding!

Lindsey said...

YAY! What a wonderful encouragement, God is so good!!!

Leslie said...

He is faithful, isn't He? Thanks for the reminder.

Sweet Simplicity said...

That is great news! God is good!

Cari said...

This post had me in tears, literally. What an awesome God we serve! He never ceases to amaze us and He always provides for His children.

Liz said...

Praise the Lord Lindsey! I pray for you on a weekly basis that God will hold you in his right hand, heal you, give you back your healthy body. You are such an inspiration.

Megan said...

I am so thankful for your insurance. Praise God for that!

The Weathers said...

Loved having ya'll last night! We have missed you guys, it was wonderful to see your beautiful faces and laugh with ya'll last night! I am encouraged by your walk through these trials, I am constantly reminded that He says He will never give us more than we can handle! I absolutely believe that! Would love to have ya'll over again... Btw, the Tahoe drive worked were going to look today or tomorrow... let you know how it goes! Hope you have a great day and get some rest! :)

erinkern said...

That is so like God. Let's us remember how much we need Him, and then He holds our hands and walks us through it. Thanks for sharing.

Tanya said...

I'm so happy to hear that you don't have that burden. It's the last thing you need!

Blessings to you!

Mrs. Cup said...

Praise the Lord for His faithfulness!! How wonderful!!

one of nettie's girls said...

It's great that we have a God who can still amaze us with His grace and provision. I wouldn't want a predictable God, would you?

Miss Marian May said...

That is so wonderful! I remember when I first read that you were starting chemo and as someone who created a lot of medical bills as a child, I prayed for your finances before thinking of your health! Maybe that sounds awful, but considering my background, it makes sense. I am so encouraged to hear that it's taken care of; praise God!

Mrs. Ruby said...

God IS good! I'm so happy to hear this...and what a tremendous weight lifted off your shoulders.
He DOES provide!!! :)

The Pink Potpourri said...

WOW!!! what a praise! i got goosebumps reading your post. God is so very good! He works in amazing ways!

Amber said...

Your quiet...how are you?