A Success In My Book!

"Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." [Prov. 31:30] I've decided, after a series of unfortunate events, that this will be my new mantra -to become this Proverbs woman. Too many young women define themselves by their appearances, possessions, and pleasantries in conversation. But, this experience of cancer has forced me to re-evaluate my life's aspirations. I no longer see the need to focus my worth on the way that I look. Sure, I still want to be attractive to my husband. I still want to take care of my body as God's temple, but I don't see the need to find my worth in the size I wear or the clothes I have or the car I drive or the jewelry that adorns me. No, my life's ambition must be the fear of the Lord, and that's all. When I am fearing God, I am showing reverential awe for him. When I am in awe of God, this forces me to see him as sovereign and to want to do His will.

Have you noticed how certain occurrences spawn more insight and reflection? This was one of those days for me. I felt the presence of the Lord on me like I never have before and I saw Him seeing me through this trial. Let me let you in on a few events of the day...

This is me in my chemo stall. I loved that they brought me a fresh, warmed blanket every few hours. Ahhh!

Brian. Always the ponderer.

Me and my sister-in-law, Lauren. I have to let you know about God's hand in this. He provided a job for Lauren at the chemo center 2 weeks. Coincidence? I think not.

Dr. Brian giving me a check-up. Yep, my heart sounds good.

Port access. Not the highlight of the day.

Ooo, look at that sexy mediport! Try not to be jealous :)

I'm not gonna be nervous. I'm not gonna be nervous ...

My great nurse reading me the right act.

This is me pouting at Brian because he wouldn't share my chair with me and snuggle. Just a little bit of medicine makes me extremely unreasonable. Poor Brian.

Catching up on my correspondence, er, uh, thank you notes.

And, the lovely fishies. I feel like I'm at the beach ... NOT!

After 6 1/2 hours, I was footloose and fancy-free, and feeling great. Brian and I capped off the night with a lovely dinner (provided by a sweet friend) and a trip to Wal-Mart. Alas, life must go on!

Thank you for your prayers and support!